I've been slowly reducing my dose of Lexapro and I feel I'm waking from a long, long sleep. Some aspects feel good (even Great!) and some are really tough. The biggest problem is with my husband. We were having some major financial problems, which led to a lot of fights when I decided to get on the meds. Looking back now, although I've been super calm since on Lexapro, I feel like I was dumbed down and it was just easier to avoid the real issues. The Lexapro helped me through some rough times but it also helped me avoid what I needed to deal with. I hope I'm making sense.
Now that I'm almost off the med, all of those old issues are resurfacing. I worried at first that I was just going back to my high strung, irritable self but now I think that I'm just alert again to the issues that cause us problems. I have tried to calmly address them w/ my hubby and we won't have any part of it. I feel he brings no stability to our family. He make poor decisions that impact all of us. His chaotic, disorganized and unplanned style has taken over our family and I've had enough! Some of what I had to say would be hard to swallow but it was all truth and I did my best not to be too hurtful.
Last night I hit the point where I feel like I'm emotionally done with him. That I can do things for myself, have fun with my friends, do things I like andenjoy my children. I feel like I'm beating my head against the wall w/ him because I care about our relationship. Well, I'm done with that. I'm not hateful and don't want to fight but I just want to be done. I'm not talking divorce or separation..I just feel I'm done emotionally.
I guess my question is...what is your take on this. Knowing where I'm at w/ the meds, do you think this may just be a phase and is related??
I'm sorry this was so long. Thanks to those of you that have stuck w/ me!
Post Edited (Riley Mo) : 12/15/2006 1:18:49 PM (GMT-7)