Hi bear, it sounds like your doing a lot to keep yourself active and motivated. However, I wonder if you’re seeing a doctor or psychiatrist for these feeling that you’re having? Are you taking an antidepressant? If not then I would highly recommend seeking out treatment. Depression is very serious and shouldn’t be ignored or thought that you alone can control it...this is why the suicide rate from depression is so high. It doesn’t have to be like that when depression is completely treatable.
Please do seek out some help and in the meantime I am going to leave some links for you for you to save to your computer if you wish...I hope that you do and I also hope that you will use them if you ever feel overwhelmed and that your life is spiraling down into this direction. Please know we are always here for you...Take care Beartooth
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Thanks to all for the helpful suggestions, and just for caring enough to respond. One day at a time is really the only way to take things for me. In the past, living that way helped. It is so easy for me to forget what I've done in the past to help myself. Right now I'm just seeing a bleak future, even though I know it doesn't have to be. I try to use cognitive behavior therapy to help myself when I think about things, but it is so easy to just forget all that I know, and allow myself to fall into the hole. If only I could remember that I am the only one who can make myself depressed. Reading the posts from others who are going through the same things as I am helps me because everyone has a different take on things. The amount of strength and the drive to survive is so strong in some people that I can't help but be jealous. Perhaps I'll get that drive back soon. I really hate being depressed.
Elisha - Thank you for the links, I will keep them around, and hopefully never need them. In answer to your question, I am on meds, but next time I see a doc, I'm going to try something else because the Welbutrin XL just isn't cutting it anymore. I'm working on getting some counseling. I just decided that it might time to try it again recently, and have been trying to get something going. I live in a small town, not many counselors around, but I will persevere and get some professional help. Thanks for caring.