Not sure what shifted, but I realized that I am feeling better. I am not sure why. My situation has not changed, and physically actually I am feeling worse, with higher pain levels, but the other day it suddenly dawned on me that I felt "normal." I feel this shadow kind of off in the corner, like a reminder that it can overpower me again whenever it wants, but meanwhile it's giving me a break, and I am hoping that if I just keep going it too will fade away. I have felt more like myself, took care of some business I had been putting off, and even called and emailed a few friends I haven't seen in a while. I know that this may not last, but the break is sure nice. Like coming up for air. Here we share when we are really struggling. I also wanted to share when things are going better with the hope that others will hang onto faith that it can happen for you too.