ElishaCo~Mod: DepressionModerator: Heart & Cardiovascular Diseasehttp://www.healingwell.com/donate
Thanks Els ,
I'm actually still waiting for counselling - I went to see someone about it in November I wanted to do that first so that I could be advised on meds (I take nothing at the moment apart from wine and chocolate - not good for the waistline!) as the person I saw said I might be bipolar....he wasn't definate as I had only spent that one time talking to him , now though after looking at my behaviour over countless years the missing piece of the puzzle has been found.
I feel a lot easier now that I know I am not strange , and I can understand my moods , behaviour etc....a lot more and can now even work to keep myself in control.
I must phone them tomorrow........even if they can't do anything yet , at least I will know how far along I am in the waiting list (and they say there is not much call for more counsellors - info from the british association!)
Take care Els , you do a wonderful job
Oh thank you smiler for the props ...you do a wonderful job also! I hope you can get into that counselor soon please let us know and you can send some of that chocolate over this way anytime....
I have a friend who I was in hospital with who has bipolar disorder. She also takes an anti depressant with her other meds as she has ups and downs.
I know what you mean when you say it feels like someone has stolen your soul-depression is awful and I wouldn't wish it on a worst enemy! I have highs and lows with my depression and each day is always different at the moment. I hope you get some help from your doctor to enable you to manage this depression better.
Take care and nice to see you over here in our little forum!! Come again!!
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Well I dug my letter from the mental health clinic out today to get their # and it was Oct not Nov when I saw them! They reckon I will be able to see someone in 5-6 weeks <---that's me singing hallelujah.
I think I'm a lost cause at the moment , I am on antibiotics cos I got cellulitus with necrosis , my stomach decided to flare yesterday and I'm feeling sick although I still believe this hasn't caused the dep.
Ya know the spider who slipped down the side of the bath , further , and further........well I'm just trying to keep away from that plug hole
"I get knocked down.......but I get up again........you ain't never gonna keep me down"
Felt a bit strange posting my probs at first seen as I'm a mod , but I suppose it keeps it real....we are all human and just trying to get along as best we can.
Wishing you both lots of chocolate ,
I always think of my depression as being in a deep dark well with slippery sides. It is so hard to climb my way back up from that well and sometimes I dont always see the light at the top, even though I know it is always there (somewhere in the back of my mind).
It's odd how each of us describe it differantly but it always comes back to being in a hole of some sort and darkness. I think people who have depression are true fighters as we have to get up everyday and make the choice to not let this beat us.
I am glad that you posted what you have as I needed a reminder on being human too. I reply to so many posts but often I dont post on my own problems and needs. I have so many things that run through my mind and that I deal with on a daily basis that makes it hard for me. I have stopped going to my counselor several months ago and havent had the courage to pick up the phone and make an appointment as I hate to discuss my childhood abuse issues that still torment me. I do still go to see my Psychiatrist though. I also have many physicial illnesses that effect my quality of life which of course effects mood. Anyway enough of that...
Here's to keeping it real
I'm glad I posted now it has helped me a lot - it feels like I have opened a door for other people too
Well I'd just like to say (as a non-mod ) you guys are so right!!
There sure is a deep black hole for all of us of some sort, but we all keep on managing to find our way out, thanks in part to you guys for supporting us and each other. You do a great job and I'm sure that everyone else agrees that your support and comments are really balanced and valuable in times of need.
Keep up the great work, but remember to ask for help or take the time to vent when you need to too.