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Hi AngMichelle, I am so sorry your dealing with so much. Motivation, inspiration, ambition and determination are all very hard to hang on too when you are living with chronic illnesses.
I too have been there, am there now...I have had MS for almost 6 yrs, diagnosed with MSA (multiple system atrophy) a yr ago which is an autonomic disorder. Depression and post traumatic stress disorder I have had most of my life...well as long as I can remember at least, and panic/anxiety for about 10 yrs now. I got divorced 3 yrs ago, my ex couldnt handle my being sick with MS as it "changed our relationship". I moved in with my mom a yr and half ago when the MSA started showing severe symptoms. I also had to quit my job as I was in the hospital for almost 3 months and my doctors wouldnt let me return they still state that I cant even work part time. I am so close to finishing my Masters in Psychology but every time I sign up for a class I have to drop as I have terrible problems with my blood pressure and it makes it really hard to go to school.
So yeah, I can really relate to trying to find motivation in life. For me some days are better then others. I can wake up, get dressed go to the gym and do my workout which is mandated by my cardiologist. It is amazing how exercise does make you feel better. I have a cat who is extremely overweight but I try not to tell him that...his name is Normandy, pets are always a great inspiration. And I do some crochet when I feel like it which keeps my hands busy and gives me a feeling of accomplishment. I try not to worry about tomorrow as it stresses me out too much just even thinking of it...today is all I have to think of and get through. At times it is hard as I dont think I will ever get married again, I know I wont have kids and my future health is so uncertain...I am 33 and live with my mom how pathetic. I try not to think of these things and at least my mother is really young for her age and gives me my space.
My thoughts and prayers are with you for your success with the LPN program. I truly hope you can find your motivators in life, we all do need them to keep going no matter how large or small they may be.
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