I am so sorry if you felt that you were pushed away from this forum. As long as members abide by forum rules, they can post about whatever they are feeling. Here at Healing Well,we don't send people away unless it is for a very good reason (if they have broken the rules).
I am glad you found this website and that you felt that you could open up to us here. I am so sorry for what you have gone through and I hope that you can find it in you to get some help. If your girlfriend loves you, she should understand and want to help you. Male rape does happen, its just we don't hear it talked about as much as female rape.
If you can talk to your doctor, he can provide you with some counselling to help you come to terms with what has happened and hopefully you will become strong enough to report what has happened as the person who did this to you deserves to be punished. There was good feedback from one of our members about giving your doctor this post to read so that you don't have to tell him, he can read it and then talk over it with you. Once it is out in the open, it will be easier to talk about.
I wish you all the best and I hope you feel you can come here again. We can only advise and we are not doctors but anytime you need to post your thoughts, feelings or just need someone to listen, we are hear.
As I said, as long as posts adhere to forum rules, you can post here.
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