Well, where do I start? I guess I have been on depression for little over 3 years now. But, I wasn't aware of it until I started getting anxious feeling occasionally 2 years ago until now. Now that I am fully aware that I am on depression, I intend to seek help - cuz, it is getting worse and worse everyday.
I am 22 years old/male. I come from a great family, and my life is going completely well. But, I just don't understand why I am so depressed. There is no reason whatsoever to be so anxious and depressed about everything, but I just can't help it, and I am sick of it. I don't know exactly at what point and why the depression clouded my life, but one thing I am sure is that before all this, I was completely fine.
I will not bore you with details of how much negative impact it is having on my everyday life. In brief, I always have hard time getting up in the morning; I feel so depressed that I just don't want to be at school or work or whatever. I am always avoiding to deal with everyday problems. It also has disastrous effect on my social life. I can't make a decent conversation with poeple anymore. In social situations, I get very nervous. Hell, I just can't explain why. And also, you can say that now I am officially the most sensitive and self-conscious person in the entire universe. Drinking beer on every weekend is the only pleasure I get from this miserable existience. And worse, when I get drunk, I become so suicidal that now my friends avoid drinking with me. I became so unlucky and unfortunate. I don't even wanna mention what has become of my love life. I always seem to miss the boat when it comes to love. I became so unfortunate with woman that sometimes I think that I might be gay.
Honestly, I am so sick of all this. I just wanna get back to the normal state of mind. I am sick of getting anxiety attacks now and then. I wanna be the guy I used to be. It seems that talking about it or seeing counsel isn't the solution to this problem.
What can I really do? What really helps? Do those medicines really work?
Please, help me with your advice!
Post Edited (rony) : 2/15/2007 11:40:37 PM (GMT-7)