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Hi Lil_Angel, I am glad that you found this forum and hope it offers you a source of support and comfort. It has for me many, many times. Everyone has given you such great advice and suggestions so far. I know you read my thread on being afraid of counseling and the why of it...often times when we are depressed and us who have been subjected to abusive situations as children and even as adults we tend to internalize this abuse. Somehow we end up believing that it was our faults or what if we did something differant. Even if we know it wasnt our faults we still have to live with the fact of dealing what had happened to us for the rest of our lives and how it effects everything and everyone around us, as it does. I am famous for isolating myself and I have made or managed to make my world very small. Maybe it is because I am afraid of getting hurt again, or because I just dont want the bother...I dont know? but it isnt healthy that I do know.
I dont know what the weather is like in the UK but I wondered if you could get outside and take walks? I know last spring when I felt really bad depression wise I just started to get out of the house and walk, the sun and fresh air helped a lot. Before long it became a routine with me and something I really enjoyed to do. Also, maybe it would help some if you started to write down some of your thoughts in a journal. Some people swear by them, I never had any benefit from it honestly but I have seen quite a few post on here that have said it helped just to get those negative thoughts out of their heads. I will tell you that hurting yourself in anyway isnt going to acheive anything, I am sure you already know that.
As for the counseling, that I believe comes when you feel your ready it shouldnt be something that is forced or else it wont work for you. However, you can see a regular physician and get a prescription for an antidepressant or antianxiety medication and you wouldnt have to go into the telling of why. All you would need to do is explain what kind of symptoms your having now...it is possible that the antidepressant you were on before just wasnt working for you, that does sometimes happen and is why keeping in close contact with the doctor is important.
I hope that you keep posting...take care
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