That feeling sounds so familiar to me. Lately, all I've wanted to do is be nurtured in a way that I feel I haven't been. I want my mom (who moved away, and with whom I really wasn't even that close, anyway) recently, and I'm 35!
It sounds like you have so much going on right now. I wish I had more substantive advice, but just know that we are here for you and keep posting!
Have a good Tuesday.