Should I be worried that I actually feel sort of good... might I mention maybe a bit more content than usual?
I've been struggling with depression for the past several years and on most days, I often find myself just pushing myself to move on... like everything required effort to do, such as driving to work, doing chores - that sort of thing. However, for the past several days, I've found myself in sort of an... elightened state, like I'm floating freely... and am more alert. I was even able to focus during a meeting at work and I felt more at ease than usual; I usually feel very awkward in social situations.
There are some things I should really worry about, but right now I just feel... carefree.
I haven't kept in contact with my friends, but I found myself replying to a message left by one of my former teammates.
I'm actually enjoying work, not so much as to driving there, but I don't find myself caught up in my own head.
Its been a long time since I've felt like this, as far as remembering goes.
Maybe... it's the caffeine talking right now, but that still wouldn't explain the other days... although it hasn't been all good the past few days, there are still moments where I catch myself in a bit of a funk - so to speak, where it's hard to get myself moving.
Can it be true that maybe I'm good for now, that being depressed doesn't ring true anymore?
And just some other notes: I'm in my early 20's. I'm not on any medication and I'm taking a break from therapy.