Ok scratch that... he just wrote me an e-mail and practically dumped me. Told me he was too sick to deal with "us" and just needed to get away and not feel guilty for draging me into his stuff.
hi there Z,
Thank you so much... i'm getting there, i actually came home from work today, it's just easier to cry here and let it all out instead of sitting at my desk trying to hold it in until it's time to come home and face my kids.
It does hurt, we've been in love with each other since i was 14, him 17... and life has just given us all kinds of twists and turns and we had finally come together, it was supposed to be forever, he was the one. I was so worried about his depression and now i'm beginning to wonder if maybe i suffer of depression too, ever since he left I find it hard to do the simplest chores around the house, much less go to the gym or anything of the sort.
Thanks for listening... this time at home is helping and of course, venting here too!
Hope u're doing better...
I know this is really hard for you, my best friend suffered along with me as you are with him, and we found that the best thing was even if I was feeling like cr*p, just to say so and she would understand that it wasn't her, but me. She would give me a quick call or email to "just see how you are" and leave it at that. I can't tell you how much I appreciated her understanding and support.
Good luck - I know it isn't easy - but if you want to be there for him, maybe some of this will hope.
Thanks for your words and your advice... you probably missed out on the part that my man and I live miles and miles appart. I'm in Costa Rica and he's currently in Canada at the moment... sigh!
At the moment we're not even chatting online because he decided it was taking too much of his time which he could be using to get better. So... we're just e-mailing every now and then which for the moment is probably the best.
But I thank you for that advice, i'll keep that in mind for when we do start talking or chatting again... :o)