Thanks for replying so fast. I really appreciate it.
I also find myself having trouble concentrating on a lot of things. I just feel distant with everything.
Well, I hope that my doctor can help me out. I feel that if I do not get this fixed soon that my husband will leave. I wouldn't blame him either because of the way I have been. He has asked me a couple of times what is wrong, and all I can say is "I don't know", because I really don't know. It is strange. I feel like it is not fair for him to be in a relationship like this. It is totally not his fault that I feel this way. My husband has mentioned once that maybe we should divorce if I do not love him. What am I suppose to say to that. Deep down, I do not want a divorce, but I don't know if I will ever feel the same love I did for him when we were first married.
What are you doing for your situation?
Alicia....I am in a similar situation. I was just thinking how I don't want to be with my husband any more. I love him, but it is more like a friend than a lover/ husband. A good friend told me that I deserve to be happy and suggested that I talk with a doctor about antidepressants. That was about 5 years ago and I still feel the same.
I can only share my thoughts and just hope that you get a sense that you are not alone. I tend to handle the issues that we face in our marriage better when I am taking my medication (Lexapro). I tend not to cry uncontrollably and feel pity for myself. But, I was just telling him the other day, that the issues are still there. They haven't gone away. The only thing that is better is how I can deal with it. I have been married for 11yrs and have a 10 yr old. I am once again thinking that I want to get out of this marriage. For many reasons...he deserves to have someone that want to be with him, my kid deserves to have a parent that is confident and doesn't have to stay with a man that makes her cry and feel alone and I deserve to have a life that is not shadowed by sadness, bitterness and resentment. Strong words, I know...but true.
It is a tough decision, but your are taking a great first step. We also did have counseling, which I do recommend. Be honest with your feelings to your doctors. They are there to help and many of them talk to women like you and me several times a day.
Be strong....think positive!