Counselling sounds a plan to me..if you have already been to counselling in the past it may well only take a few sessions just to get through this rough patch and get on track again.
Wondering if you have spoken to your doctor about how you are feeling these days, and are you on meds?
You are not alone with these thoughts Kayla, believe me...have you been thru this before?
Keep posting..and take good care.
Hi Kayla, Thank you for adding somemore information here. Everyone has a certian amount of fear that bad things will happen to them at random times...however, when this becomes an obsession or a compulsive behavior pattern then certianly there is a problem there. I relate to how hard it is to talk to strangers but counselors are there to help you and it is a safe environment for you to discuss what your thoughts and feelings are without judgement or criticisim. I agree that counseling may be the best choice here but also I think that you may need to discuss some of these things with your mom as perhaps a visit to a psychiatrist would be beneficial here. That way you can be evaluated by a professional doctor who is experianced with mental disorders.
You mentioned your father who you believe suffers from some sort of paranoia. It is true that mental illnesses can be inherited or passed down from one generation to the next. However, since you also said that you witnessed your fathers behavior at such a young age I would have to wonder if this is an actual illness or learned behavior from what you have seen. Young children are very open minded and easily a negative situation or traumatic event can stick with them for life and continue to cause problems for them as adults. Please do talk to someone about this and see about getting some help for it. Keep posting too...I hope you find it helps. Take care
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