I just thought of something, and I was hoping you guys could help me. Ok so I'm finally going to the doctors to have me checked out abd get help for myself, but how do I tell him? I can't just come out and say "I'm depressed, help" It doesn't sound quite right. What should I start talking about. I'm horribly shy and hate to canvey my feeling out loud. Do you guys think you can help me?
I agree. Tell the doctor you think your depressed and you need help and then backfill the details as he/she asks for them. Make sure you say everything that you feel is important as well though. Dont just answer the doctors questions and walk out. I hope you get on well at the doctors. Let us know how you get on.
As for "Does depression EVER go away on its own?" Not as far as im aware. Self-Treatment is a possibility but i dont think it is very successful. Unless you deal with the underlying cause it comes back. Its a bit like mouldy floor boards. If you only clean the surface mould off then it comes back. If you treat the mould within the floorboard (or replace it, I suppose) it doesnt!
Hiya Froggy, (I LOVE the name btw! )
As for the pain in your chest, it is possible that it is part of the anxiety that your doctor told you about but I would expect it to come and go; getting worse when you are more anxious. If it is a constant pain then I would say its probably not the condition but the meds that are being used to treat it. I would go back to see your doctor and tell him and see what he says. It could be that the meds don't 'suit' you and that you need a different med.
As for the trigger event, I think it is perfectly normal for most people to feel guilty about not saying good-bye when they had an opportunity. Especially when it was their 'personality' that stopped them. That aside, im sure your grandma knew that you loved her and im sure she doesn't blame you. Perhaps this is an event you should discuss with a professional? Im sure you are not a fialure either, it just feels like you are. When you feel like that, try writing a list of things that you have achieved over the last year. They could be big things like getting an A on an exam or smaller things like seeking help with a medical condition. They are all successes and if you have acheived them then surely you are not a failure! Its all about challenging your method of thinking. If you can prove to yourself tht something is logically untrue, you can start to believe it is untrue. With reference to taking your life to the full, try just doing something once a week and start to build it up gradually. Perhaps joining a sports club is for you. (Squash is a GREAT sport. You can play by yourself if you want and it doesnt matter how hard you hit the ball it doesnt bounce back too hard... unlike tennis balls!) If sports are not your thing then maybe a reading club or gardening... stuff like that.
There are loads of people out there that love you. Maybe take some support from them
All the best
Actually, today has gone pretty well. Although the feelings of anxiety still plague me 24/7, I havn't really felt "down" this entire day! This has to be the longest that I've felt like myself. Maybe it's the meds, but I wish this feeling would never end. Sadly, I can already feel the happy sensation wanning away, being replaced by that familiar dark scary feeling. I went to see my doc, because I was having some really strange symptoms with Cymbalta, and he put me on a different med, Celexa I think 20mg. These days I have been feeling slightly less depressed, but my anxiety and tiredness are increasing. It seems that no matter what, when one thing goes away, I get something else. I'd go from dehydration to the flu, to another cold, to bronchitis and so on. Now this! I knew it, that happy feeling is gone now. In just a matter of minutes it's gone. Now I'm feeling more depressed. (amazing how I changed feelings while I was typing!)