I want to take a minute and let everyone know that in many months of sadness and darkness, I had a ray of light shine on me today! It was the brightest time in my life for quite awhile and I never wanted it to end. It was a feeling of utter happiness and joy. The outcome of the occurance was not to be a positive one but knowing that it was happening in the moment there is nothing I would have rather done or a place I would have been. There are no words to tell you how much I felt in my heart.
Ultimately, my tomorrows will not change and my life will go on the same as they did before this wonderful period of my day but I will tell you that I wouldn't change times like that for anything. Did I cry when the moment was over, more than you can ever imagine but I would cry a million rivers to have that once in awhile.
My faith showed me today that through all the rain and the pain there are brief moments that will be so worth it and today I realized that.
THANK YOU GOD TO FOR THE CHANCE TO SEE ONE OF MY PRAYERS COME TRUE. MY WANTS AND DREAMS DIDNT COME TRUE TODAY AND I DONT KNOW IF THEY EVER WILL BUT MY SOUL HAS A SMALL BANDAGE WHERE IT WAS BLEEDING. HAS IT HEALED ALL THE WAY? NO, If and when it ever does, I will be waiting.
I sit here in tears feeling so many things. I dont feel so alone right now. It is if God in some small way is saying, hang tough Teresa I havent forsaken you.
Today was proof of that.
"Faith is knowing you're in control
when your life is falling apart,
Faith is in that quiet assurance
I feel deep within my heart".