It is 8:30 in the morning, and I am on the verge of bursting into tears. Last night I went to bed early, took a shower, did my nails and put loads of moisturizer around my eyes to try and stop them from dryness and getting red in the morning, determined to get to work looking fresh and pretty and NOT like a toad for a change. Its 8:30 in the freggin’ morning, work does not start until 9:30, and I am about to cry, and am just holding myself. I’ve logged on here, and now the urge to cry is gone, but I now I know my day is already screwed.
I hate this, I hate having red eyes, nose and a puffy face, and I hate being unable to control my tear ducts. Sometimes I feel a relief to just hide away in a bathroom and bawl into the towel, but now it is starting to tire me out. I’m so scared that one of these days I’m going to start crying at the office, there will be no way for me to hide it.
I don’t know if any of you have these constant outbursts? If anyone saw me they’d think someone died! Do you often get the urge to cry? And if yes, do you somehow prevent it? I’ve tried counting to ten, telling myself not to do it.. but it just has a mind of it’s own.
Hi Nats, I wonder if there is a reason why you are crying? Do you have depression or a similiar disorder?
I recall when my depression hits its high point I tend to cry often and mostly for no reason at all. I normally know that when I get like this I need to get my behind into the doctor for a med change or adjustment. But this is just me...
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Hi this is Kitt and I know exactly what your going through. At my worse during my 26 years of depression I would wake up in the morning in bed and start to cry as I did not know what to do next, I could not make decisions.
I cried while putting my make-up on when getting ready to go to work. I cried on my way to work, and then I put on my mask and pretended I was great..............I knew I was in serious trouble and med changes were not working.
I fianlly broke down at work and hid in a corner of my office. I called my good friend and asked her to come up to my office...........when she saw me she went and got my boss who drove me home...........Guess what I am still alive and did not die of humiliation even though I thought I would.
I was in a deep depression, I needed to get into therapy and work with Pdoc on meds. I also took early retirement.
You can hold the tears in but somehow they have a mind of their own and the darn bursts.
I spent days crying and hugging my dog and praying for someone to help me. I woud wash fae and take a big sigh thinking I am ok now and the tears started all over.
I truly agree with Jeanie, you need to see a physician and get to the cause of your tears and the rage you are feeling.
You have the support of all these wonderful people, let them help you and keep posting.
Another thing- I figured out a way to trick people into believing that my eyes were teary because of allergies. I tried to keep things around that I could be allergic to. I claim perfumes and lotion scents, dust, cats and dogs and flowers. At pretty much any time I can claim I had come into contact with an allergen.
I did end up getting on medications. The first several meds and dose combinations did not work, and only added side effects to my "sadness." For the last medication change I felt better, even on a "high." I got impulsive, "spendy", testy with my children and my husband.
I don't know if medication is always the answer, but it can help.