I have to say that I know exactly how you feel. I had some issues arise in my life lately and had decided to try to deal with it myself. I have p....ss..ed off someone very special in my life whose opinions mean a great deal to me. Losing both avenues, I have gotten more depressed. Actually taking the advice of the person I miss the most was one of the best things I think I did. In fact it is probably the only reason I can keep my head above the water!!! I wish he knew just how I felt but I try to leave him alone and let him do what he needs to do, I miss the long talks about everything and the concern I felt and saw when I hurt.
So........I'm back because I cannot do it without you guys! You guys have no choice but too hear me (lol) and unfortunately, my biggest fan is frustrated with my actions but still continues to try to help me. I feel that he is slowly slipping away from me and it makes me very sad.
Angel, I recently found something from my past hospitalization that has almost put me over the edge. I actually started to think that my struggle 8 years ago is still happening and that I am a fool to think that anyone would ever trust me again. Living with the fact that even in my most innocent actions, I will always have to prove myself! How depressing!
My life is about to take a turn and I am so alone! I am scared and actually am starting to feel like I did a couple months ago.
I am so depressed and lonely!! When I say lonely, I miss my confidant!! BIG TIME!!!!!
I could use all the prayers anyone would say for me, I thank God every day for the blessings of making through another day. Who knows, tomorrow could be the day that my life changes forever, right?
" If we deny love that is given to us, if we refuse to give love because we fear pain or loss, then our lives will be empty, our loss greater.”
"You know how people say that if you wish for something hard enough it will come true... Well, I've been wishing for you every night and you still aren't here"