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_Christina
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   Posted 6/20/2007 10:22 PM (GMT -7)   
I have been on Zoloft, Lexapro, 10, 20, 30 and now Cymbalta 30mgs 1X daily.  it is working a little bit, I know because when I ran out I was off for 3 days and crashed badly.  It is just not working the way I would like to.  I want to be happy.  I want the good feelings from a good song to last beyond the end of the song.  I want to stop wanting to run, quit, or even hurt myself.  I have not done it- but the urge is there almost daily.  I want to stop the pain in my chest and the headache every day.  I want to fill the void I feel.  I want to feel the love of my husband.
 
every day has the good parts and bad parts.  some days are better than others.  on a chart of 1-10 they look like 4-5-6-2-1-2-3-4-4-5-5-3-4-5-6-3-3-4-5-2  the good days are always followed by the bad ones.  The day goes like that too.  up and down all day.  No really good times, but not all one bad either.
 
The phyc has wanted to add mood stableizers for the last 2 visits, but I fight him b/c of the side effects.  Now I don't care.  I am loosing hope that I will ever get better on the depression meds alone.  it seems to make the cycle even worse, anyway.  Now he is doubleing the Cymbalta to 60 mgs and adding Lemietah (sp?).  the side effects are funky, but if it works, I no longer care.
 
he said that he thinks I may be BiPolor II, instead of classic depression.  I don't get the manic, but the symptioms are only getting wore with the SSRI's alone, so that may say BiPolor.  I start school in the fall for the 1st time in 10 years.  I need to get better in the next 2 months b/c I can't handle school and depression/Bipolor too.
 
I hate this.  I'm loosing hope.  talk me out of this.
Christina
 
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djdaz_1985
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   Posted 6/21/2007 1:07 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Christina,
 
Have you considered verbal therapy as well as meds rather than just increasing the cymbalta? It could be that the AD's will bring you up a peg or two so that you are more receptive to other therapies. This is something to consider and talk to your physician about. I think it is also important to get a firm concrete dx. Unless they know what they are treating, then it is much harder to give you the most effective therapy and/or meds.
 
There are loads of options out there for you and I think that its great that you are going back to school. It shows that you are really determined to get on with your life and not let this beat you. You should be proud of that.
 
Warmest Wishes
 
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   Posted 6/21/2007 4:20 AM (GMT -7)   
Christina
Oh hon I am so sorry that you are so low. If you do not feel comfortable with your doctor then you might need to consider a second opinion.
But,if you do feel ok with them,then it won't hurt to take their advice..if the meds just don't work then you can always tell them you need something else.

Darren is right about therapy,I can't remember if you are in counseling or not? Sorry so many things on my mind lately.
Remember that the meds can only help so much,they do not take the depression away. You have to deal with what has triggered your depression and with the help of meds you will be able to start healing.


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_Christina
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   Posted 6/21/2007 12:32 PM (GMT -7)   
I see a therapist every 2 weeks.  I got so low today I had to leave work.  I cried on the way to work and when I told my boss that I needed to go home.  There was no way I could see clients today.  I'm home for at least a couple days as I add the stabilizer and double the cymbalta. 
The counseling doesn't do much till I find a med, the meds will work better with the counseling.  I'm doing everything they say to do, reading, taking meds, talking, cutting down on stuff and relaxing.  it's just going round and round.
Christina
 
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Singer69
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   Posted 6/21/2007 12:42 PM (GMT -7)   
Christina,

It sounds as if you are doing all of the right things and Darren is right about how great it is that you are going back to school. That alone may help change your outlook as you are surrounded by eager people anxious to learn and grow and expand their horizons. That can be contagious.

It's so tricky finding the right meds and therapy combinations. But you're doing the right things, including posting on this forum.

Take care and I'll be reading regularly.

Rick...

faithfully4you
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   Posted 6/22/2007 4:16 PM (GMT -7)   
sad  Christina~
I agree with everyone here but I also want to add this.....depending on how long you have had depression, it may take several diagnosis to finally get one.  There are actually people that have multiple diagnosis.  It is not unusual to have the docs change "their" minds when it comes to that, you may present  a new symptom at another time and they may want to address it by adding a "temporary" diagnosis.  I also looked at it this way,,,,I would rather have several diagnosis than be told that I have one and not get the treatment I need because it may not be the one.  Hang tough, they will figure it out :)
 
I went back to school several years ago at the age of 38.  I now have an Associates Degree in Health and Human Services, aka Social Work.  It was the best time of my life.  I actually felt as if I was making a difference and was actually achieving something.  My self-esteem was probably the highest of my entire life.  I think it is great that you are doing that!!!!
 
My depression is severe and is now treatment resistant.  The grand-daddy of mental illness.  It is the most horrible thing in the world.  I also have been deemed several different diagnosis. Therapy was never helpful for me this was due to the prominent brain chemistry that was chemically controlled.  In my lowest times however they did try that.  I have always been an articulate person and done alot of self-help for my depression.
 
It is the most horrible illness in the world so never ever let up on trying to figure out ways to get ahead of it.
 
 
Teresa
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Reza
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   Posted 6/23/2007 12:51 PM (GMT -7)   
can bipolar be the same as skitsophernia??

djdaz_1985
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   Posted 6/23/2007 1:34 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi there,
 
Bipolar Disorder (formerly known as Manic Depression) is different to Schizophrenia. (Although it is possible for the 2 to co-exist). Bipolar Disorder is a form of depression where a persons can change between very low (depression) and very high (mania). Schizophrenia is classed as a personality disorder where people can suffer a number of different symptoms including auditory hallucinations. These are very simplistic definitions but hopefully it answers the question.
 
Darren
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faithfully4you
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   Posted 6/24/2007 6:54 AM (GMT -7)   
That is the difficult thing with depression/mental illness, there are so many avenues of diagnosis.  Bipolar and schizophrenia are two different diagnosis.  My suggestion to you is too self educate yourself on the different avenues of what diagnosis there are.  I am not sure if you have the time to do this but my education about my illness comes from taking a specific category such as bipolar and learning about that and then going on from there.  Another good resource is a book that covers all or most psychological/psychiatric illnesses.  A librarian can help you with a starting point of what kind of book you would want to start with.  I personally suggest contacting NAMI(National Association for Mental Illness).   They are a wealth of information.
 
Long and short of this is in our society today, if we really want to know about what we are experiencing, we must get the information ourselves and then present it to our docs.  They will be shocked that you are armed with information that they wont or cant take the time to give you.  In this case you will already have the information, you will just want an answer to the questions.
 
Good luck!!
Teresa
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" Love is being stupid together."
Paul Valery
 
" Tonight I sent an angel to watch over you, but it came back. When I asked why, it told me that angels don't watch over other angels."
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