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   Posted 6/26/2007 6:46 PM (GMT -6)   
I'm really sorry I moved away. But you didn't think I would live at home forever did you? I know, moving to another state wasn't what I expected either. What makes it even worse is you were right. I hate Iowa. But I can't tell you that because all I'll ever hear from you anymore is "Move home then". Who am I kidding, that's all I hear now.
I miss you both so much. And Shannon, and Pookie. I miss the sunny Florida beaches and the beautiful parks. I miss the seagulls and the palm trees, the shopping and having things to do. I miss your home cooked meals and your company.. I miss how happy him and I were down there. We never fought, we had so much fun. Now all we do is work and sit at home and fight from time to time.
I think it may be because I secretly resent him for moving me here. And I worry that he'll never move back with me. That if I want to move back to Florida, it would have to be without him, and I can't bear that thought. I'm so in love with him and I don't know what to do because I don't want to live here for much longer. I can't live here forever. I want to marry him and have kids with him, but I couldn't imagine having kids without you nearby to spoil them. And there's no way I would want them growing up in this town... Everyone I've met here does or has done meth before, it's like it's some sort of initiation rite of being a teenager here. That terrifies me!

Dad, I'm sorry you got shingles right after I left. I know that was my fault.
Mom, I'm sorry you've been so sick. I worry that it's my fault as well, since you don't eat when you're depressed, and when you don't eat, you have problems with your diabetes. I'm sorry.
Shannon, I'm sorry I'm not there for you to help you through your boy troubles and be a good big sister for you.
Sophie, I'm sorry I abandoned you. You are such a great dog and you needed me, you needed my love and I just left you. I miss your nubby little tail and your boxer kisses.

I don't know what to do. I need help. I'm even on anti-depressants now... I don't cry as much as I used to, but it doesn't take away the homesickness. Will it ever go away?

My heart hurts. 1,400 miles is too far. Someone please convince him that Florida is better. Please.

I miss you so much.

Love Always,
Your Stupid Daughter.

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   Posted 6/27/2007 3:31 AM (GMT -6)   

Hi there hunni,

Im really sorry that you feel like this. I think its terrible that you should have to feel this way and feel that you have no choices. I am a little confused as to whether you have sent this letter/email to your parents or not. If you havn't then I think it would be a good idea to let them know how much you care about them and how you feel about the situation. If you have sent this then have you received a reply? Also, does your boyfriend know how you feel? What are his feelings on the matter? Perhaps a compromise can be found? For example, moving to a state half way between Florida and Iowa such as Kentucky or Tennesse? I am unsure why he is so adament about living in Iowa.

I ceertainly dont think that you are stupid in anyway. We all have to make our own way in life eventually and there will be times when we feel we have made a mistake and times when we know we have made the right decision. This is all part of the learning process, but doesnt make you stupid.

You know that we will always be here for you to give you the support you want and need whenever you want.

Im sending you big hugs from the UK


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   Posted 6/27/2007 5:49 AM (GMT -6)   

Hi HCS,  I am so very sorry that your still feeling this way sad .  No one should have to make a choice between family and a relationship.  Those that do feel like they had to make this choice usually end up resenting the person that they feel are responsible.  This doesnt make for a happy relationship.

I dont think you are responsible for your parents getting sick.  They are adults and should know how to take care of themselves properly.  I am sure they miss you terriably but I dont think that it is wise for them to put pressure/guilt on you to come home and or make you feel like the things that are going on with them is your fault.  If this is the case?  What you are responsible for is making your own choices in had to have made the choice to move instead of thinking your bf made you do it.

It is obvious that your not happy where your at.  Talk to your bf about this and try to make him understand how your feeling.  If it gets you no where then you may try moving back to flordia for a while.  Hopefully, then he will get the hint and decide that he wants to be with you as much as you do him and move there to be with you.  You have to do what makes you happy dear and it doesnt sound at all like your happy in Iowa.

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   Posted 6/27/2007 7:37 AM (GMT -6)   
I too am so sorry this has you so torn up inside
As was said NO one should have to make a choice between family and a relationship ever.......

Be well and I hope all the best for you

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   Posted 6/28/2007 7:30 AM (GMT -6)   
I too went through a move,not as far as you did,but my kids stayed with my ex husband 2 hrs away.
I have no friends here,and miss all of my friends and family.

I am also in Iowa....

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