I hope you didn't think I was coming down too hard on you about the meds. I also take lorazepam and an anti depressant called Remeron. These really help me. I also suffer from panic attacks. I know how depression can really get one down. I have a lot of family issues I am dealing with right now so I know how bad depression can get. Sometimes I get so lonely I just want to cry all day. The excersize is good for you. Excersize releases endorphins in the brain which help you to feel better so keep it up. There is always something to keep going for. If you are down today just tell yourself tomorrow will be better and try to do something that will make you feel better. Last week I went to a movie by myself - the first tiime I have ever done that. The movie turned out to be sad but I was proud of myself for getting out of the house and doing something. We are all here to support one another. Take care.