I was just a kid

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goddess0728
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   Posted 7/9/2007 12:41 PM (GMT -7)   
Hey everyone

After todays' therapy I just need to say to you all I was just a kid. It wasn't my fault. I didn't make it happen.


I don't want to and still really can't write out the story but I just need to say I WAS JUST A KID. ONLY A KID. It wasn't my fault. And I'm starting to believe that in my guts.

And my stepfather is a mean bully, and I didn't cause that either.

I am so glad I found this forum. Thanks to all of you.
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ShynSassy
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   Posted 7/9/2007 5:09 PM (GMT -7)   
Amen Goddess!
You have come a long way just to be able to say that.
I still have not been able to say that it was not my fault.

We are so glad that you are here!


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   Posted 7/10/2007 3:22 AM (GMT -7)   
Goddess,
 
It must have taken a lot to admit that and write it here. You sounds like you are on the right road to healing and are doing really well. Like Shy, I am glad you are here.
 
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goddess0728
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   Posted 7/10/2007 7:49 AM (GMT -7)   
Thanks so much both of you. It means so much to have such great feedback from you.

ShyNSassy I know a bit of your story and I really want you to be able to let go of the self-blame too.

God, it's so good to be able to come here and vent/share! Thank God for all of you. :-)
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Singer69
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   Posted 7/10/2007 3:32 PM (GMT -7)   
Goddess,

That's awesome!! It is sooooo great that you were able to do that. I hope it was a freeing and empowering experience.

Kudos!

Rick...
I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
But she's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change

And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hand
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it’s got nothing to do with me

~ Lyrics from "Daughters" by John Mayer


ShynSassy
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   Posted 7/11/2007 4:51 AM (GMT -7)   
Goddess
I am working on that. And I will be able to do it one day.

I credit this site with being able to heal. Without it I do not know where I would be.



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goddess0728
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   Posted 7/11/2007 6:36 AM (GMT -7)   
ShynSassy said...
Goddess
I am working on that. And I will be able to do it one day.

I credit this site with being able to heal. Without it I do not know where I would be.



Shy


Yes you will and I can't wait to see that day :)

I am so glad I found this site too, it is helping me soooo much!
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LG
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   Posted 7/14/2007 8:45 PM (GMT -7)   
Goddess,
I similarily had to learn to let go and realize that something wasnt my fault and it was a long sometimes downhill process but i think similarly to you i have almost completly accepted it in my heart. I am so glad to hear you are recovering from the pain from your past! i wish you all the best
my prayers are with you
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slappy7
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   Posted 7/14/2007 10:57 PM (GMT -7)   
Goddess,

Glad to hear that you've reached a point to put the blame where it belongs.

els
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   Posted 7/15/2007 2:05 PM (GMT -7)   

Goddess, That is a very hard realization to come too...I am pleased that counseling is helping you and you are able to come to this point.  That is where healing begins...

Saying "I was just a kid", knowing it deep in your heart and remembering that day after day is one of the hardest things.  Realizing that we had no power or control in what happened, it wasnt our faults and trying to learn how to live with it in peace is a huge feat.

I too am trying to get to this point...it just hasnt jelled for me yet.


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stkitt
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   Posted 7/15/2007 7:47 PM (GMT -7)   

Godess,

Kudos to you as well as gentle hugs. I am so glad you have accepted that it was not your fault.

I do know where your coming from and how brave you are in working through this issues. I am proud of you.  Keep up the work.

The world is a better place becuase of you. yeah Please keep posting.


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   Posted 7/16/2007 3:37 AM (GMT -7)   
godess,HUGS to you my friend you are not to blame just like the rest of us who this has happened to we were all only kids and none of us are to blame but one thing is you are a survivor and the road ahead may be a long one but you have begun your journey and we are all here to listen and give support as you need it .
A lot of us have and still are travelling along the same road our paths will unboudtly pass at one stage or another .Tis is a great place to meet and true friends are what you wil find in here .
Everyone is just so caring .
Take care and stay safe.
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