Why do bad things happen to good people? I do not know and I have read the book, but I still don't know.
I do know you are in pain and in a dark lonely place right now. We are all here for you and please trust me, you will climb out of that dark hole and see the light again.
You are a caring and worthy person with much to offer the world. Your daughter needs you. Please just take one day at a time, don't look back, just look forward. I know this is hard to do but I truly have had to do this too.
I hope you are in therapy to help you over this big hill in front of you. Take our hands in friendship and let us help you.
Keep posting. Gentle Hugs.
We are all here for you as much as we can be but I know the feeling of wanting someone physically there. Internet friends dont quite fill the hole the same way a friendly hug would. I hope you can celebrate your daughters birthday and have a wonderful day together tomorrow (And that it doesnt rain as it probably will here in the UK!) You have such strength and positivity I am sure you can overcome with with a little support.
Warmest Wishes and Happy Birthday to your daughter
I am right here and I am so glad you found the tape. I have read the book. I know pain. When my son was killed I just could not get my mind to work, I just cried and cried and then I would get up and do some silly thing and cry some more.
People told me time will heal the pain. Time has dulled the pain, but it is locked away and creeps out whenever I get really down.
I know people prayed for me and I prayed to God to please help me, why me, I am weak, did He not know I could not deal with this? I had visions of myself sitting in a rocking chair on the porch of a mental facility somewhere.
He certainly must have helped me through as I am still here yet I still run into pain..................as you, I sometimes feel all alone and cannot find the energy to get out and do something, do what? Where do you go alone?
I have learned to be patient and wait and it will be better again. My heart breaks for you when I read you posts. You touch my soul with your pain.
Please know I am here and I am praying...............for you my friend.
I might be 3000 miles (give or take! lol) away, but I can completely understand how you and Shy feel. We have the same problem in the UK. The rich get richer and the poor get poorer. If you have money then you can have help. It seems that in the UK the only way to get help is to pay to be seen privately. The free schemes (Youth schemes, behaviour correction schemes, the NHS etc...) are all falling apart.
It makes me so angry that the government cant (or wont) help.