Hi Somewhere Over the Rainbow!
Just thought I'd say hello, and welcome you to healingwell.
You're definately not alone in these thoughts, and I understand it must be so hard for you to actualy let things out. I personally have that problem, and am finding my own release in writing things down, writing letters, or discussing my worries on this here forum.
I think it's good you have a safe zone. Somewhere you feel safe enough just to let all your emotions roll out, as sometimes trying to keep them locked up inside can run you down.
I know the feeling of just wanting something that desperately, especialy just a bit of hapiness to see you through. I suggest mentioning to a councillor, if you have one, about
taking extra pils when you feel like this. Sometimes an overdose of antidepressants can have the opposite effect, and make you feel even worse, rather than better.
I hope you can find what you need from this forum, and I'm sure soon enough you wil feel at home, and find it really easy to talk.
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Diagnosed with: Cystic Fibrosis, Asthma, ABPA, Clinical Depression, Mild liver cirrohsis, mild osteopenia. Waiting for final diagnosis on Muscular Dystrophy type symptoms.
Medication: Creon 10,000, Flucloxacillin, Vitamins A,D+E, Tobi nebuliser, Serevent, Salbutamol, Sertraline, Odansetron, Nefopam, Ciprofloxacin, Ursodeoxycholic Acid, Omeprazole.
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