I am sorry that you are going through so much right now. Being depressed dosen't help matters any either. It is tough out there and all you can do is your best. I know abount failure, I too feel like that some days. As for counseling I think that will help you, I do know that at some churches they offer free counseling. If you will consider that I think that may be a good option and you won't have to worry about the money. As for being happy, I myself am trying to figure out what makes me happy too. Anything that can put a smile on your face or make you laugh, like some funny movies or being around children always helps me. Life changes are always tough career wise and relationships. Try to focus on the positive things, the little things, sunsets, sports, whatever it is for you. As for meds, I am still trying to find the best fit too, it is not uncommon for it to take a while for people to find the right meds that work best for them. I wish there was a magical cure for us, just try to be patient and know that we are all here to listen. Good luck and take care,
Hello and Welcome to Healing Welll and the depresion forum. You are not alone as there are many caring and supportive people here to help you and validate your feelings.
I am wondering if you took retirement from the PD for PTSD if you are eligible for SSI and disability benefits. That would surely give you what you need to see a therpist and received the medical care I feel would help you. Also would you not be eligible for Workmen's Comp Benefits as you were injured on the job?
Now I do not know how all these things work but hopefully others here will have some info.
For now I wish you peace and hope. Stay with us and keep posting.