I've been free from depression for about two weeks now.
It has left me with a beautiful insight.
When it's all over, it really does make you stronger.
My depression was horrible. i was hospitalized three times. i had to take time off work. i was unable to go to school which made me give up my first year of university for a year. I have never been so low in my life. Believe me, there were so many times where i just wanted to give up. I'm sure many of you feel that way. And i know how annoying it is to hear people say "Oh things will get better" "Just be patient" "You'll get through this"
Looking back, they were all right. At the end of the day, we don't have the choice to give up or not. we have to stick with it whether we like it or not.
Depression is mean. i know what you all are going through. Depression has basically left me with a life that's in a million pieces. i still wonder how i got through it all.
Days are hard and nights are harder. but really, focus on getting through one day at a time. you might be struggling with no energy or unable to focus or beginning your journey through the trial and error of antidepressants. it all seems hopeless when your depressed. but trust me, the end is coming. and once you do get through it (which you will) you will be stronger. you will see the light at the end of the tunnel. you will see it. Stick with it and do it for yourself. take on depression and fight it. deep down you are stronger than the illness, you just don't know it yet.
I've had people tell me this and i dismissed it right away because i figured they had no idea what it was like to be me, but i know what it's like to be severly depressed. If you take anything away from what i wrote, use my words as inspiration, an example of what is coming for you.
I think it's important to stress the fact that people do get through depression because i never believed i would get throught it. i know 80% of people who have had 2 or more episodes of severe depression will relapse, but i believe i am stronger now so that i can take on this depression.
I'd love to hear anyone else's gain from depression. any insights or things that made you stronger.
-borderline personality disorder