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witsend43
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   Posted 9/5/2007 9:28 AM (GMT -7)   
I am Done! Thats how I feel right now. I have been very depressed for about eight years now I have been to counseling been on many different meds and still on some. My wife does not understand me and is not very supportive she just backs away and becomes very cold. She will not help me with anything anymore and says she is tired of raising two teenagers me and my 17 year old son!!!!!Recently I came to the point were I could not stand the pain any more so I went to my doctor and told him so and he sent me to a Psychiatrist who diagnosed me with sleep ampnia and sent me to sleep study which confirmed me as having severe sleep apnia. He has not listened to
my any of what I have to say because he is convinced that a pap machine to cure my sleep apnia will cure my depression and social phobia. Well meanwhile I have been out of work on a leave of absence for a month because I am unable to deal with it my leave is up tomorrow, my wife of 20 years is threatening to leave my if I don't get it together and go back to work and I am still waiting for my machine witch I got fitted for about a week ago and The doc says it may take 7 to ten days to get approved!!! And on top of everything my insurance sent me a letter saying I owe 530.00 for treatment so far that was supposed to be coved 100 percent and there is no way in hell I can pay this!! No one understands the pain I am feeling everyone just brushes my off and tells me to shut up and put up!!!! Well I am DONE!!! Done with everything I cant take it any more the waiting the pain the threats No more!!!! I don't know what to do. I cant go back to work tomorrow My wife of twenty years will leave or kick me out of the house and I cant take that I love her very much and hate myself for what this is doing to her and I hate her for not understanding and I took the wedding vow for better or for worse seriously and I guess she did not I have never hit her or cheated on her or been verbally abusing I don't understand why she is abandoning me!!!!! I am just done I dont know what I am going to do next!!!!

Sorry but I had to edit your post due to rule #1 of our forum
1. No discussion of any illegal activity or threats of violence. (ie. illicit drug use, including medical marijuana use, threats of suicide or self-injury, or threatened or intended physical harm). Discussions of suicide or self-harm that are deemed negative and therefore potentially injurious to others are also not permitted.

Post Edited By Moderator (ShynSassy) : 9/5/2007 3:56:29 PM (GMT-6)


Wifeofdepression
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   Posted 9/5/2007 10:13 AM (GMT -7)   
If this is truly how you feel, go to the nearest psychiatric hospital for an evaluation. They will either admit you for several days or set you up in a day program or say you are ok. Just talking to someone will help.

witsend43
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   Posted 9/5/2007 10:20 AM (GMT -7)   
I cant afford too go any ware like a Psyc hospital they are very expensive and my insureance dose not cover almost anything. But I appreciate the advise.

stkitt
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   Posted 9/5/2007 2:17 PM (GMT -7)   

Good Afternoon,

I am so sorry that you are feeling so alone. I do understand that when we are at the bottom of a deep dark hole it is hard to believe that life will ever improve but please trust that it will. If you feel you need immediate help call 911, or present to the ER.  Why worry about the money ? I think perhaps you really want to get better but you are just so depressed right now your not sure what to do?

Can you concentrate on you right now and let your wife's anger run itself out. You cannot get better for her but only for you. We are here to support you.  Try the CPAP machine, you will be amazed how your energy level will increase when you really get a good nights sleep.

Crisis phone numbers for you............USA : 1-800-784-2433  or  1-800-273-8255

Gentle Hugs

 


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ShynSassy
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   Posted 9/5/2007 3:06 PM (GMT -7)   
Witsend
You really need help now.
Feeling this way is not healthy and it will just take you on a darker road.
I understand the fear about the money,but at some point if you want to help yourself,help your family you have to start with you.


Please keep us posted and do not give up.

Shy
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Chronic Depression, Panic Attacks,Anxiety Attacks,Anorexia
Meds I have taken throughout the years:Wellbutrin,Tranxene,Paxil,Prozac,Valium,
Lexapro,Zyban,Buspar,Clonazepam
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How can you talk without a brain?

I dunno...but alot of people talk without a brain don't they?

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djdaz_1985
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   Posted 9/6/2007 12:36 AM (GMT -7)   

Hi Witsend,

Im really sorry that things have gotten this bad. I am aware that money is a big factor for people in the US when seeking help. My advice would be to ring the crisis line that Kitt has given you. I have heard that they offer excellent advice and support to people.

Please dont give up, there is so much to live for.

Darren


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witsend43
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   Posted 9/6/2007 11:26 AM (GMT -7)   
Does anyone know if i can call one of the crisis numbers above and not have them send anyone after me?
I just want someone to talk to and I am scared to death of hospitalization. I am already in dept to much and at this point my wife can take care of herself and my boy but if I run up any more bills we will probably lose everything! I cant have this!!! I don't know if everyone on this forum is here in the US but our medical system sucks to say the least. The bills are totally out of line and we pay a ton of money for insurance that hardly covers anything. between my wife and I we only make about 25,000 a year thats barely squeaking by. and every time we go to the doctor or hospital we add more to or medical bills that we will probably never be able to pay in a lifetime! At this point today I think I have lost my job, my psyc was supposed to extend my leave, see about meds adjust and my papo machine but he did not call me back and will not return my calls. I think he is scamming me I have had three appointments with him and he has only seen me for 15 min at a time I thought this was becuase of insurance but I found out he is charging a whole hour. I live in a small area and he is the only one that would accept my insurance so I have no other choice but to see him. Anyway if anyone can answer the above question for me I would really appreciate it and I would very much appreciate honesty.

ShynSassy
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   Posted 9/6/2007 12:35 PM (GMT -7)   
witsend
You can call the crisis center and not worry about them having someone come out. In order to do that you would have to give your address,if they ask just don't give it to them if you do not feel comfortable.

Please stay strong and keep us posted.

Shy
Mod- Depression

Chronic Depression, Panic Attacks,Anxiety Attacks,Anorexia
Meds I have taken throughout the years:Wellbutrin,Tranxene,Paxil,Prozac,Valium,
Lexapro,Zyban,Buspar,Clonazepam
Off of all meds at this time...woohoo!!
www.healingwell.com/donate



How can you talk without a brain?

I dunno...but alot of people talk without a brain don't they?

Dorthy and the Scarecrow-Wizard of Oz


stkitt
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Total Posts : 32602
   Posted 9/6/2007 2:11 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi
 
From what I know Confidential and Anonymous are posted on the sites. You may want to do a search online of the crisis centers and verify this yourself as I do not want to miss lead you.
 
Gentle Hugs
Kitt
 
 

Another Day
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   Posted 9/6/2007 11:20 PM (GMT -7)   
witsend,
 
I don't know if you are familiar with the FMLA, Family Medical Leave Act, which you would most likely qualify for if you work for a company that employs at least 50 people.  You might want to check out the link below.  You would not be paid for the time off, but it would keep you from losing your job.  You can take up to 12 weeks off in a calendar year.  Your Human Resources Department will most likely have their own forms for you to fill out.  I hope this is helpful.
 
 
 
Take care!
 
Carla
 Epilepsy, asthma, GERD, depression, hypothyroidism

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