We all whine from time to time on here, so please don't worry about that. I can be a big time whiner on the Epilepsy forum at times. The good thing is that when one person is down there are always five to ten more who are doing well at the time and are there to help you. You will find in time that you will be able to do that for us one day.
I think Darren has given you some very good advice about letting your husband know about what is going on.
Hugs and prayers!
Epilepsy, asthma, GERD, depression, hypothyroidism