Hi tangerine bear
I'm new here, but not to depression. In the 18 years since I was diagnosed, they're have been several ups and downs, it happens. You probably know this.
What caused the drop? Is there anything that happened recently that may have helped you start to drop?
Hi Bear, Super BIG HUGS to you...it sounds like you need them
Do you know what brought on your crying spell at work? It sounds like your going to want to be very careful with that as they arent too sympathic...perhaps go to the bathroom or something if you feel like you need to cry.
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hi thanks to everyone for the replies. I know I should be able to control my emotions but I have a big problem with that sometimes. I also have anxiety disorder and when this type of thing creeps up on me I lose control and my thought processes get foggy. I know it's good advice to go to the bathroom, etc to cry. My problem is letting go of things, which is part of my ocd issues. I suppose that's why I have to stay in therapy...
hugs to all
Bear, those emotions are so hard to control most especially when they have built up or you have a trigger that sets them off.
I understand, I'm OCD with anxiety/panic disorder too though my ocd isnt all that bad really...I am just really obessive about some things. When I have my episodes (that is what I usually call them) I usually escape to the nearest place where no one else is. But that is just me, my thoughts are on getting out, running that sort of thing. Thearpy does help if you can really use the mind over matter thing and recognize when these are coming on. Sometimes I can, sometimes I can't so, I still take xanax when I need too.
Dont be too harsh on yourself when this happens. I think we all have such differant coping skills. We try so hard to be strong and alright that we sometimes over compisate by not releasing some emotions that we should so they build up, then we blow up. I bet people who dont have depression or anxiety do it too but they most likely dont beat themselves up about it as much as we do.
Hugs to you sweets...have a wonderful weekend
I'm feeling a tiny bit better after upping my dose 2 days in a row, although I've slept a LOT this weekend. That is how I cope when this happens... Thank you for the support
Thank you for your reply and your concern. My doctor has allowed me to up (or lower) my lexapro dosage many times during my 2+ years of treatment. I am prescribed 20 mg., but have been taking just half for a while. When my symptoms get bad, I sometimes up the dose to 15, or in this case 20mg. She really thinks I should take 15mg regularly, but I've lowered the dose lately because I tend to get "twitchy". In times of extreme stress or depression, I up the dose. If I get the muscle twitches, I will certainly go back down. Because I already have a blood level of the medicine it doesn't take long for the medicine to start working, at least for me.
I'm very nervous about going to work today... the "what if's" have taken over, and I'm extremely worried that I will be let go because I went to speak with HR after work about the incident. I'm hoping that I'm just overreacting (as usual), but I guess I'll find out today...
Your description of the "what ifs" is spot on. I can tell you that my life is a constant battle with it. My therapist is always working on that one with me! I did go to HR today and spoke with them about the situation. If they try to "sack" me, at least I have it all on record. They also told me that they think my boss is trying to just intimidate me, because there is no rule that I've broken by crying. If there was (I was told), they would have written me up, but they couldn't. So.... we'll see.
Thank you for your kind replies
Im glad that things were OK when you went to see HR. It sounds like they were more sympathetic than your boss was when he sent you home.
All the best