Up and down
I can tell the way you write that you aren't sure what to think of yourself. As you keep saying. I can understand the trust issue, as I have this same issue. I had never realized it until a friend told me they could tell. After thinking about it, I realized I did have trust issues. And that is ok. I started going to a therapist and the thing she tells me over and over again is that I am NOT a failure. Just because I am depressed doesn't mean I did anything wrong and it doesn't define who I am. It is just a bump in the road, but I can overcome it with time. She always says that it does NOT make me a failure. And the same is true for you. Just because you could be depressed or have certain feelings doesn't mean you are a failure. Because it reality you are not a failure.
I think you should talk more with your counselor. Mine has helped a lot. Think about the different possiblities and try to find yourself. Try to figure out your feelings. Discuss them. Write them down. Maybe keep a journal and write in it what you are feeling and why. This place is great(like many have told you!) because if you feel like you need to say something you can just say it. Vent if you need to. It might help. It helps me. Sometimes you just feel better letting it all out.
And I also want you to know that you are not crazy! Even if you may feel like you are, you aren't! And you are not a failure! So just remember that!
I wish you all the best! And hope you can find some answers! Take care!
Hi up and down, welcome to healing well forum, we are glad to have you join us here.
When I read your very first post it sounded much like my own depression and how I feel when it hits me. I also am an insecure person with relationships (divorced too) and find I dont like to dwell too much on my emotions or the way I feel since it is always so confusing too me...always has been so it is much easier to ignore I guess. But then comes the crying for no reason, and being irritable, moody, quite and distant from others. My eating habits never have changed and I havent been one for laying around sleeping either. There are many different depression diagnosis and some are way more severe than others so that they basically cant function.
I ended up spiraling down to a very dangerous place in my depression in just a matter of a few days. That was when I knew I needed to get my behind into the doctor for some sort of help. I started to see a psychiatrist 2 yrs who did a major overhaul on my medication and I have never felt better mentally. So like djdaz, I also strongly encourage anyone who feels they may be having some depressive signs or symptoms to please seek some help. It can be very dangerous to just let this go and really you dont have to continue to feel this way.
Please do keep posting and letting us know how your doing. Take care
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I dont think breaking up with him will make much difference to the issue. I would think (and having never had a relationship, I am going off what people tell me!) that it would be easier to iron out these problems with someone by your side. That way you have the support of someone close to you and you can also see how you were doing because you are in the relationship. You are right in saying that meds will not make the problem go away, but meds can give you the boost you need to help you sort them out. Once they are sorted, you can then come off the meds (If you know what I mean!) Seeking professional help is something I would seriously consider.
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