Thanks for the responses! The Klonopin was substituted for Xanax by my old doc. A cardiologist put me on the Xanax after my first panic attack that lasted two weeks. I had all the heart work up tests done, and left with a script
for anxiety meds..lol. Up until that first panic attack.. I was "normal". Whatever normal is. I had no anxiety issues, I had no depression issues. I had pain, but I also have spinal issues. But I was up and out of bed each morning and able to get done what needed done, and constantly involved in some project... renovating bathroom, new kitchen flooring, restoring antique woodwork, etc. Or sewing quilts. Or redecorating one of the kids rooms. I took no pain meds other than Tylenol PM (hard to get to sleep when you hurt).
After that first panic attack..things went totally downhill. I started getting this/that dx from docs. Osteoarthritis, costochondritis, fibromyalgia, panic disorder, IBS, GERD, Deg. disk disease. They started shoving meds at me left and right, Zoloft, Klono, Flexeril, Skelaxin, Wellbutrin, Lyrica, Darvocet, Lortab, Norco. Most of which I cared nothing for and stopped on my own.
I've always been a super optimistic person. Ready to tackle anything and everything. Nothing upset me much.. most just rolled off me. I raised a bipolar child, who was unmedicated and drove everyone else nutty. She's twelve now and seems pretty stable. But at the time, everyone told me I was going to crash if I didn't medicate HER. By the time this all happened, she was well under control.
I really can't find anything at all in my "history" that would cause depression. Unless it was the whole ordeal from the first panic attack and on. I tried therapy... it was a bust pretty much. Too much talk about
how my childhood made me anxious... I was like WHAT??? I need help for panic NOW.. not a rehash of my relatively normal childhood. Spoiled only child of a two parent family.
Chronic fatique syndrome? I've never been looked at for that. Not sure what they look at, though.. so it's possible I just missed it. I am tired a lot, but that can be caused by a lot I would think. I'll read through the forum and see if anything seems similiar.
Thanks for listening to my vents... I'm just still stunned over this all.
I'm not procrastinating----I'm still doing yesterday!!!!
I have no medical training, any medical opinions expressed in my posts are just that....opinions.