Long Road Ahead, Can I make It?

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faithfully4you
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   Posted 9/26/2007 9:21 AM (GMT -7)   
Well here I am almost a month since my "nap" and I am trying to figure out whether or not I feel better.  I am taking so many meds that I wonder if I will truly ever be able to enjoy my life w/o all of the meds.  Believe me I know how important they are and that depression is going to be a part of my life forever.  I guess the problem I have is that every day is the same thing, day after day, noone to really spend time with, worrying about how long my car is going to run, will i have rent money for the next month will the things that I have so much faith in be a reality.
 
I think that I am depressed just as much as I was last month but the meds are obviously giving me enough thought process to reason through negative images or thoughts that come into my head.  The thing that scares me is will I snap again because of the loneliness I feel every day?  This is what truly scares me because of my "robotic" thought processes that I had on that day.
 
There are so many things going on in my life that are just as devastating now as they were then.
 
I just keep telling myself that if I am patient good things will happen and the things I hope for will be.  I just am tired of waiting day after day after day.
 
I dont know, just feel alone and sad alot.
Teresa
 
 The only limit to our realization of tomorrow will be our doubts of today. Let us move forward with strong and active faith.


djdaz_1985
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   Posted 9/26/2007 11:09 AM (GMT -7)   

Hi Teresa,

I know you have been through so much and that the end of the road is still in the distance, but you are a fantastically stong person with so much willpower and you should be proud of that. You ask "Can I make it?", I am confident that you will. I know that things are hard at the moment but I believe in Karma. "What goes around, comes around". You will get your reward, but you might have to be a little more patient.

We are all here for you

Darren 


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   Posted 9/26/2007 11:37 AM (GMT -7)   

Dear Teresa,

You will make it, I truly believe that.  I am a firm believer in Hope.

Hope is a desire accompanied by confident expectation. Having a sense of hope is the foundation for ongoing recovery from mental illness. Even the smallest belief that we can get better, as others have, can fuel the recovery process

Believe in yourself as I believe in you gentle lady.  Take my hand.

Hugs to you and lots of prayers.


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faithfully4you
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   Posted 9/26/2007 5:36 PM (GMT -7)   
Thank you guys so much for your responses.  When I think about the people that care about me, you guys are indeed one of the few reasons that I find comfort in the future.
 
It has been a long week and I have made some difficult attempts to feel better.  Thank you for caring the way you do, it really does mean alot.
Teresa
 
 The only limit to our realization of tomorrow will be our doubts of today. Let us move forward with strong and active faith.


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   Posted 9/26/2007 9:28 PM (GMT -7)   
It is all about baby steps and facing one day at a time. I went through a very nasty divorce, and the feelings of lonliness were overwhelmning at times. I found an important part of my recory involved talk therapy during the times I was at the lowest. I know it can be a very slow and draining process, but there is hope and life as you move through the journey. I use to think that some day I would be able to no longer take the anti-depressant medication, but through discussions with my therapist and PCP, believe I will be on them for the rest of my life. I do know that I am far better able to face the day to day aspects of life much better since taking them and accepting them. Good luck on your journey and hope you find peace soon.
We can respond to irritation with a smile instead of scowl, or by giving warm praise instead of icy indifference. By our being understanding instead of abrupt, others, in turn, may decide to hold on a little longer rather than to give way. Love, patience, and meekness can be just as contagious as rudeness and crudeness.

 
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   Posted 9/27/2007 2:24 AM (GMT -7)   

Randy has made some excellent points in saying that progress is all about "baby steps" Dont try and rush things. Do you remember the race between the tortoise and the hare? (You do have that in the US right?) The moral to the story: "Slow and steady wins the race". You can do it and I have every faith in you. We are all here for you and will egg you on all the way to the finish line if thats what you want!

Big British Hugs

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   Posted 9/27/2007 4:06 AM (GMT -7)   
Teresa,
 
Randy is right, it is all about the baby steps.  We know you are going to make it and you know that you have us 100% behind you.  I'm not sure where you live or what the weather is like, but can you get outside in the sunshine today?  You are a very strong person or you wouldn't still be here fighting this battle.
 
We love you very much, Teresa.
 
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faithfully4you
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   Posted 9/27/2007 5:08 PM (GMT -7)   
:-)  Thanks you guys,
It seems like when I need encouragement the most you are there.
 
I have had a rough day today.  One of the worst since my accident.  I even wondered whether I needed to be in the hospital.  Yea, that is how bad I felt.  I have been extremely lonely and feel like I did before my accident, actually I am somewhat afraid lately that I will snap again.
 
I am really trying to be strong but it is really hard!!
 
Just feel sad you know?
Teresa
 
 The only limit to our realization of tomorrow will be our doubts of today. Let us move forward with strong and active faith.

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