Like Granny, I prefer to spend my time alone but its not a depression thing... its just my personality I think. It sounds like you need some time out from everything to get your head back in gear and sort everything out. Have you considered a weekend break? If you book them last minute (Like on Friday) they are really cheap!!!
Thinking of you
I get so sick of people alot. I don't really know why. Most people just seem so annoying to me. I almost hate to even hear people talk because I am immpatience and annoyed. I used to not be this way. Now I just want to be left alone. I like it that way. And a vaction sounds really great! Get away from the noise and all the people. I get so tired of being around people and always having to do stuff. I feel like I never get a break. I am always busy doing stuff I hate to do and don't have a lot of me-time. I just want to be left alone with nothing to do in the peace and quiet! But, like I said, I used to not be this way at all.
I used to live outside with friends. I enjoyed being around people and I was always the life of the party. I loved trying new things. I would some of the craziest things, but I enjoyed it. Now almost everything is unenjoyable for me. My counselor tells me that the wanting to be left alone and because I hate being around people is just my depression, she thinks. I also have the desire to sleep all the time. But, it is my way of getting away from the world. I have no worries when I am asleep. Except the very annoying dreams I sometimes have about my condition and such. That is bringing reality into the dream, I hate that. But, she says by working on it I can start to enjoy people again. Doubt it, but why not give it a shot.
Sorry for the vent, just needed to let a little out.
How much do you care for this b/f? I also feel he does not fight fair. In a relationship that is between two people the third parties should be left out.
I feel he goes behind your back and tells all, blaming the "meltdowns" on you and therefore putting you on the spot. Have you tried to sit down with Him and find out why he feels so insecure? I would also spell out my expectations of your relationship.
You may have to verify that he understands your expectations. :)
You got spirit girl and you keep it. You need to be loved for yourself and you do not have to be raked over by his family. He needs therapy perhaps to build up his self esteem and then he would not have to go to his family for reassurance that his is ok.
Take care and Ihope you get that holiday you deserve.
Hugs to you kiddo.
I hope next weekend is better for you... your mum obviously has some common sense. Like Kitt, I hope you get your holiday! He obviously needs help since he relys on his family for support, just dont let him drag you down too. We are all here for you.
Big Hugs from Britain