I remember being anxious as a child, expecially anticipatory anxiety. Depression fell on me like a ton of bricks in 1982 when my oldest son went off to the Marines. I have lived with it under control for many years but had some minor flair ups until 2005 when I had a major meltdown.
I ended up taking early retirement in 2006 due to the depression and now here I am much better working again part time and loving this wonderful site.
Helping others helps me.
I was 28 when I was diagnosed with depression and social phobia. Looking back I'm sure the cause of my depression started at the age of 15 when my father passed away. I withdrew from ppl and my feelings.
I masked it pretty well cause I didn't even know I suffered from it until the crap hit the fan one day at work with my b/f. Things weren't going right between us and when I told him I loved him, he said "it will pass". My life completely flipped upside down. I ended up taking a 3 month leave of absence from work and was immediately put on pills, pills, and more pills. I went to therapy but it didn't help. It seems nothing really helps.
I still haven't cried over my dad's death and it's been 18 years.