Hi there and welcome to HealingWell,
I am glad that you have found us and that you feel you can use the boards as a way of releasing all the locked away feelings that you have. It sounds like you need to talk to your family about how you feel... are you able to do that? Are they likely to be receptive? Failing that, have you considered talking to a professional councillor?
Post Edited (marie2001) : 10/23/2007 12:31:50 PM (GMT-6)
I am 23 in March so I am a similar age to you and can sympathise. Even though what happened with this man was a long time ago, you would probably still benifit from talking about it rather than keping it bottled up. Things like that fester away in the back of your mind and come back to haunt you decades down the line. Its better out than in, thats for sure. As for going out, I can sympathise there as well as I had a car accident in June 2006. I can ride in a car, but I am nervous sometimes. Especially when some nutter in front decides to do something stupid. As for driving, I have to wait until December this year to get my licence back due to my epilepsy and I am looking forward to having it back again, but in the same breath, I am dreading driving again. I dont know if I can do it. Im sure I have the knowledge, but I dont know if I can do it psychologically. I can completely understand what you are going through. What I would do is start by driving to the end of the street and back. Then work your way up to bigger distances... round the block, to the shop etc... Before you know it you will be driving you and your daughter to Arkansas for moose hunting season! (I live in the UK, but I think thats where moose live! )
Please remember you are not on your own and you can talk to us any time.
shy has given you some great advice regarding the Hepatitis. It is not as scary as you might think and there is a mine of information on Hep forum. As for the deer, i can only imagine wat thats like... it doesnt happen very often in the UK. Are you able to replace the car?