I am sorry that you are feling down but from your post it appears you have many issues that would cause you to feel down as well as a chronic illness has a tendency to go hand in hand with depression.
I do not know where you live but a year feels like a long time before you can get into any therapy. I hope your GP is treating your depression with something. Are you on an antidepressant?
Also have you thought of setting up an exercise program as exercise is a powerful tool against depression? Get out and take some time for you. Just a walk for 30 minutes a day or whatever you can manage.
Keep on posting and remember there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
Kitt has got a great idea there... one I have suggested to many people. Exercise. Doing exercise helps get the blood flowing and can increase your body's ability to process vitamin D which can help alleviate depression. Do you live in the UK? Getting treatment on the NHS is very slow since there is such a pressure on it. too many patients and not enough doctors. I am sorry that you have had to go through all this, but please keep talking to us.
Taking one day at a time is a great idea. Dont try to rush yourself or force yourself to do things too hard as it doesnt work very well because it is easy to fall back to where you were. Take things slowly, but always make sure you are moving forwards.
Its nice to hear that you are getting up and about, even if you are having to force yourself. If you keep doing it, it will feel less and less like a chore and more like something to look forward to. I think you made the right choice regarding your dentist apointment as well... I would have done the same thing.
Let us know how you get on with your lump
I know what you mean what yousay that everything is against your family... I have the same problem. Just recently, we have has 2 people diagnosed with cancer (1 isnt expected to last more than 6 months), we had to have our dog put down after she had another stroke... the list goes on. Whats important is how you deal with the problems. Congratulations on going out yesterday... it must have taken a lot to do that, but hopefully the next time will be easier.
All the best