Hi there and Welcome to HealingWell.
I think you are in the right place and we will help to support you in anyway we can. To a certain degree, your kids sound fairly 'normal'. Me and my sister were about the same in age difference. I was always quite good and my sister was a rebel, so I think some of it is to be expected. Can you get any help from the state for your household? In terms of your down days... it definately sounds like it warrents seeing a doctor about it... if nothing else, they shoul;d be able to help you in terms of showing you where to go next.
I am glad we are here for you so please know that you are a member of a wonderful family here at Healing Well.
We all need one another so keep on posting and try not to work to hard today. :)
I might have got you a bit confused. By 'the state' I mean the government. (It might be a funny phrase we use in the UK... there seems to be a lot of them at the moment! lol) It seems a shame that there is no / little financial aid being offered to you in your province. I completely understand what you mean when they say you earn too much... I never worked out how they decide how much is too much! lol. I hope you get to see your doctor soon.