You have been through alot my friend. Abuse is something that leaves scars both mentally and physically for the rest of your life.
Finding the courage to leave and start a new life is something that you should be very proud of. I know from experience it was not easy.
If you still feel that your depression is not on it's way to healing then maybe you should really consider seeing a counselor to get help? Even once a week or once a month.
Since you have not changed meds in 9 years,then it might just be time to get on something else. You could do some research on the different types of meds out there,that way you are informed and can let your doctor know what you prefer.
Chronic Depression, Panic Attacks,Anxiety Attacks,Anorexia
Meds I have taken throughout the years:Wellbutrin,Tranxene,Paxil,Prozac,Valium,
Have been med free for 2 years now.www.healingwell.com/donate