I know this is no excuse as you have said,but sometimes life takes it's toll and the pressure is just way to much and we need to find something to help us deal.
Please do not beat yourself up over this,for one you know you have a problem..which is why you hid the wine in the first place.
I suggest getting yourself to the doctor and explaining what is going on with you and see if there is any medical help that you can get.
Also,the AA meetings are a great idea...although I will tell you I feel very hypocritical right about
now because I too have been known to have a few glasses of wine to just chill out.
Please stay strong and keep in touch...
Chronic Depression, Panic Attacks,Anxiety Attacks,Anorexia
Meds I have taken throughout the years:Wellbutrin,Tranxene,Paxil,Prozac,Valium,
Have been med free for 2 years now.www.healingwell.com/donate