Hi there Tennis,
I know that when you have 'down days' (Which sometimes turn into 'down weeks') it is hard to pick yourself up again. Try and think about all the things that you have achieved. I know you are young so this might be a bit more difficult but it is still do-able. Examples might include: Passing exams/tests or Winning a game (not neccessarily sports). They could be simple things like attending school for a whole week, doing all your homework or perhaps doing all your chores or not having an argument with your parents for a whole week. Hopefully this will help lift your spirit because you will be able to see that you have a lot to be proud of.
Let us know how you are feeling today
I understand what its like to have teachers pushing loads of deadlines. I am a university student and I have mountains of work also. My advice in dealing with that is to simply take one thing at a time and while you are focusing on one thing, dont think about the others... they will get their turn.
I have set some goals. And One of my very important goals is to telll someone (an adult) what I am feeling and get help for it. I told my friend that last night. My goal is to tell befor Christmas. She said that was huge. And I told her I wanted to try my best and she needed to remind me of it when I am feeling down. We talked about choosing the right person to tell. I am either going to tell my school counselor (who I talk to once a week) or one of my teachers. She asked if I wanted her there, and I think that would be great.
The thing is, I cant say anything out loud. I talk to her in texts for hours at a time. But, I am not able to talk about it out loud in person. So, I told her we would work on that first. It would help if I could say everything out loud. I talk to myself a lot, I mean, what I would say to whoevere I decide to tell. She told me I should close my eyes and imagine I am telling it to myself. So, I practice all the time. But, I have a hard time saying it around someone, so my friend promised to help me. I told her and I have completely opened up to her.
She knows everything and I tell her everything I am feeling. She understands because she has been thorugh alot of it herself. So, we decided we would work on talking in person so I would be more ready to tell someone.
I don't think I am ADD. Although, its seems like it now. I am very smart. I have always done very well in school. But, now I am losing my passion for it. I am just finding it hard to focus on it or even care about it anymore, although, I still know it is important. I am in 11th grade. I was kind of upset the last time we got report cards because my grades have always been very very important to me. (because I want to be a doctor) I have made straight A's for as long as I can remember. This year is alot harder, I will admit. School has always seemed so easy for me. I have never had to study until this year. This year I have been fighting to keep up and stay on track. I made a B on my last report card. I was disappointed because I feel like I am trying so hard and working so hard, but I cant pull it off.
I am sorry this is so long. For the time being, I am trying really hard to make up for what I have lost. I have never had to study or anything, it has always been very easy, but that is all different now. But, I wont settle for that change. So, I am trying to work harder than ever to make up for it. I just dont know how long I can hold out.
Thanks for the support! Its much appreciated!
I can type how I feel better than I can say. Its just easier. I get really scared when I say things out loud. Sometimes just texting or typing about certain things, makes me scared and I start to shake. But, its easier this way.
I think the interferring is partly fibro fog (if I truly have it) and the fact that everything has gotten so bad that I never stop thinking about it. I am constantly thinking. But, never focused on anything. Like during lunch, I sit with friends, but I usually dont care about what they are saying and just sit thinking. I hate being depressed, I hate worrying about things. I just wish for once I could be calm, relax, and enjoy life the way I should.
Yea, I have always done very well and it would be horrible if I messed up at the end just because of this stuff. I hate that it keeps me from being all that I can be. It holds me back from my full potential. I wish I could be myself.
Thanks. I guess I better go, school tomorrow. Yippy.
Yes, I knew that, thats why I am fighting so hard to get better, so I can show my true self. My goal is to tell 'the right person' before Christmas. If I stick to it, I will be telling someone very soon. I really hope I am able to.
Thanks so much for your kind words.
I hope you have a good day at school today and I am glad that you hve set golas and targets. Just remember to keep them realistic and add them to your achievements list when you complete them! You can do this! Just take it slowly, but remember to push yourself a little bit... otherwise you will go backwards
I posted a thread in the a/p forum about the school thing if anyone would like to read more about it. I wasnt feeling up to explaining this morning. I am only feeling a little better now.
Im sorry you had to miss school yesterday but Im glad you are feeling a bit better today. Hopefully you will be back at school before you know it!
I went to school yesterday at about 10:30. So I didnt miss much. But I had to go, I did not want to miss my more important classes. I was scared this morning would be like yesterday. At first it seemed like it, but I gathered some thing to do on the bus. I did not do my homework last night so I did it on the bus. I listened to music. And when finished with my work, I did the Sudoku puzzle in the paper. I dont know if it was all that, but I felt ok. I never got sick. Not once, although, I felt like it most of the morning, nothing ever happened. Eventually, as the day went on I started feeling better. Now I feel fine. I am just hoping tomorrow will go as smoothly! I felt bad yesterday all day, even last night, so I took a pill that was supposed to help my stomach, so maybe thats what helped. I took it before I went to bed.
But, today has been low anxiety so that could be why I didnt get sick. Not sure, but I hope it doesnt happen again!