First of all I want to welcome you to the forum,I am sure you will find the support that you are looking for.
I think it is time for you to go back to the doctor and tell them about
your depression,there are so many different meds now that can help you with the anxiety and depression.
Also,I used to have the same problem with not being able to talk about
what was going on in my head...until I found this site that is.
Use it for all of those feelings,you will not be judged here and this is one of the places where you can go and be somewhat "normal" for a while.
Chronic Depression, Panic Attacks,Anxiety Attacks,Anorexia
Meds I have taken throughout the years:Wellbutrin,Tranxene,Paxil,Prozac,Valium,
Have been med free for 2 years now.www.healingwell.com/donate