Post Edited (manyembers) : 12/21/2007 9:11:17 AM (GMT-7)
I am so happy that you got to go out with another couple so h could see the difference in how you were able to interact with them apposed to the people that you are living with. Maybe now he will understand how it hurts you to be snubbed (?). Looking for the right word. You are such a special person and don't deserve to be treated that way by his friends. And if they were real friends they wouldn't treat his wife that way. There is so much I don't understand, but that is the way I see it.
Isn't Kevin Daniel great. I had put an "s" on the end of his name and I guess there isn't one. I did'nt see some of his prints. He has some with water scenes and canoes. It usually looks like sunset. The colors are magnificent. But I like his wolves the best and the deer. There is one with a black wolf, that is one of my favorites. John puts them in barnwood frames and they look even better. We might have a chance to sell some for Christmastiime. The lady where we got the paperwork for the marraige liscense wants to see some. So I am going to take pictures of them so she can see what they look like.
You have become my special forum friend, who knows one day maybe our paths will cross. This is like having a pen pal, I hope that the forum moderators don't mind how much we write. It is therapeudic for our depression so they probably think it is good. I feel like I know you in a sense. I really enjoy our conversations. If I could figure out the chat room maybe one day, if our time coordinates we could go there. I have never been in one so I don't know if I could do it right. This is fine for now, I always look forward to your posts.
I am so glad you are feeling better, I am sure once you get back on your proper diet that you will feel much better. I think I will start a new thread on the fibro forum. Something about how we got diagnosed. Mine was with tenderpoints. For this forum, I have suffered with depression for about 25 years. This is the best I have felt in all that time and I think the forum has a lot to do with it. Unless it is a new med I have been taking called abilify. Also risperdol. It helps with obsessive thinking, kind of gives you your objectivity back. It is so hard to be objective when you are depressed.
I do feel at peace with what we are doing. I will feel like I belong somewhere now. I still had feeling of purpose because John is so attentive to me and my feelings. More than my late husband was. He was possessive and jealous. I don't know how I lived with it so long, but I did. I was a good wife and I have no doubt about that. Even to the end with his lung cancer, I was there for him and did everything possible to make him comfortable. So I have no guilty feelings about that relationship. I put up with more than most women would and made that extra effort especially at the end. John came up for the last three months and helped me. I was so happy because I was getting really run down healthwise and could barely do it. Isn't it strange how that worked out? We had been friends for a long time and got along so well. I guess us getting together was meant to be.
Today I am going to run to town and go to a sporting good store and pick up John's Christmas and birthday presents. I think I can find a couple other items for son and dil. Wanted to get them one more gift. We are lucky that we have money this year for Christmas. It isn't always like that Sometimes we can't get anything, so the people who come on the forum who are depressed for the holidays I can totally relate to that. Christmas has lost the true meaning and is so comercialized. I can understand why others get so depressed, the items for kids are way too expensive. And you feel obligated to give to everybody you know and that just isn't possible. They should put way more emphasis on spending time together with family and just feeling at peace with the true meaning of the holiday. More nativity scenes and less plastic santas.
I will end here, I want to get ready to go shopping or I wont go. This is the last chance I have to get John something for his birthday. Though he insists he doesn't want anything, I know better. And wouldn't feel right if I didn't get him something.
Luv and Hugs to you Ember,
I enjoy reading your posts so much that it makes my day.
Thank you Embers, you are so sweet. This will probably be the last time I write as a single woman. Actually a widow. I don't really like that word for some reason. So I am tickled to be getting a new last name and the whole shot.
It is less than 12 hours away. Butterflies are happening now.
I am so glad I am excited because it makes me feel young again. I am 49. I feel like 29 right now. That is soooo cooool.
I hope that you feel better soon. I remember the last time that you posted you weren't feeling all that good either. I bet when you get back home that you will start feeling better. How much longer is it? about a week, or did h want to stay into January? I wonder if you did pick up a bug? The way the weather has been, warmer, there are a lot of bugs going around here. John's son has been kind of sick. That is hard with the new baby. I got a flu shot so I have been lucky so far. Sometimes I will pick something up in the spring. That is always a bummer.
I will close here, I hope that this finds you well.
Post Edited (Gillcom) : 12/21/2007 2:36:37 AM (GMT-7)
Post Edited (manyembers) : 12/21/2007 9:33:42 AM (GMT-7)
Post Edited (manyembers) : 12/21/2007 9:20:49 AM (GMT-7)
Hi there you guys,
I hope that you both are having a good day. As I am sure you know my day has been magnificant. I am starting to unwind now. Hubby is laying down, he is tired so I thought I would write some since I can be lazy today and have some extra time. What a way to spend a honeymoon, right? That is okay. I like chatting with my fingertip friends. Marlee on the fibro forum refered to us as fingertip friends and I thought that was kind of a catchy phrase.
The weather is a little dreary today, it has been on the vurge of rain all day. The dampness makes me ache so bad. The days of no sunshine can be depressing. I am lucky to have reasons to be in good spirits. I hope that this continues. Luckily the temperatures have been somewhat warm. Yesterday it felt like a thaw. Everything was dripping and we lost a lot of snow. That takes a load off my mind and off of the rooves and greenhouses. This kind of weather reminds me of planting seeds for the garden, though it is way too early. That always breaks up the long winter some. Getting seeds planted for spring. Do either of you garden? Embers I know that you have had to move a lot but what about this year? Do you think you will be moving when you get back to Canada? I love to watch things grow.
I will close here, will probably be back later.
Post Edited (manyembers) : 12/21/2007 11:49:26 PM (GMT-7)
Post Edited (manyembers) : 12/23/2007 12:53:24 AM (GMT-7)
Hey you guys,
Thought I would drop a few lines to let you know what is going on here. It is really windy today but not too cold, though the wind makes it seem cold. This is suppose to last for a couple of days. I don't like the wind, it makes me nervous. Especially when it is like this. A lot of noises outside. My greenhouse door keeps moving and the dog thinks it is someone out side. Then she starts barking.
I got an email from my late husbands cousin in North Carolina. She has gotten into photography. She goes to Country music festivals and photos the artists. Then she down loads them and burns CD's. She is going to teach me some things with that and with computer. Her son's are teaching her right now and then she will pass on that information to me. I told her that John and I got married. She was so happy for us. I was a little worried because I was married to their cousin before he died. In fact the day he died was her birthday. Isn't that ironic. I feel a little better today. I tried to stay away from the sugar last night, so I believe that was the culprit. I will have to be more careful with that. The holidays will be over soon so hopefully all the sweets will disappear.
Today is John's birthday. He wouldn't let me get him anything. I couldn't even sneak away to get any thing for him no matter how hard I tried. I want to make him a cake. He likes pistachio pudding cake. (more sweets) But he would probably like an apple pie better. I will ask him. Both sound good.
I suppose I should close here, got a few things to get started on.
Gillian, how old are your boys. I hope all is well with them. I bet you have your hands full. Are you from Scottland like Embers said you might be? I guess your time would be a lot different than ours. I have seen pictures of the scottish hills, it is beautiful there. I always picture the men playing the bagpipes. Whenever I listen to scottish music, it send chills up my spine. I collect a little celtic music, I just love the way it makes me feel.
Let me know.