I completely agree with the advice already posted here. You are in need of the care of a physician to dx all of the sx and concerns you have and a mission, Salvation Army or your local county services should be able to help you.
You have access to the computer and appear to be comfortable using one so please go online and look for the agencies in your county or area that you can seek help for your health and for your safety.
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety ~ Panic
Not a mental health professional of any kind
It is health that is real wealth and not pieces of gold and silver.~Mahatma Gandhi~