Hi, I'm Jeannie and I felt the same as you do now when I was first diagnosed. I've probably had diabetes for about 25 years, but was diagnosed about 10 years ago. I use a program that I downloaded from the net called CalorieKing that helps me track all the foods I eat. It was only $15.00 and works well. There are some other plans out there you can try that are very helpful as well. If you do use the CalorieKing program it keeps track of what you've eaten all day and lets you know how much of each thing (fats, carbs, proteins, fibers) you have left today. I believe for the 1200 calorie diet you would need to consume about 44 gm of fat, 144 gm. of carbs, 28 gm. of fiber, and 60 gm. of protein. I"m on 1500 calories and the only one I have trouble with is the fiber. Can't seem to hit it no matter what...
Some things to keep in mind are this... Try to cook with peanut or olive oil as much as possible. They are monounsaturated fats that are very good for your HDL levels (that's the good cholesterol). And even though it's tempting because all the world is telling you to, don't take too much fat out of your diet. Eating nuts, olives and avacodos (monounsaturated fats) are all things that help with your hunger.Fats do not affect your blood glucose and it helps you feel satisfied in your tummy. I use a thin spread of peanut butter on my bread instead of butter. Better for me and tastes yummy.
Make salad in big tupperware bowls. Use lots of green stuff that you might not usually use. I add collard greens, spinach, bok choy, red cabbage, raw zuchinni, just about anything I can find in the raw veggie aisle for salads. I also use romaine lettuce instead of iceberg for the base. Put your salad dressing into the cap of the bottle and then dip your fork into it before each bite. This will give you the minimum amt of dressing while making every bite delicious. This also helps you stay within your dressing alotment.
Eat real fruit, not juice. And always purchase the smaller fruits, not the big ones. Eating whole fruit fills you up, increases your fiber intake and slows down the release of the fructose into your blood stream because the cell walls hold on to some of the fructose and delay it's release in your intestines. You get blood sugar spikes with juice. (And spikes are what we want to avoid.)
As far as your blood sugar readings go, call your doctor's office and speak to the nurse. Ask which times the doctor wants you to check. One good idea is to keep a little chart and figure your weekly averages. When you go to the doctor you can say what the averages are running for am. and before bed or before dinner. Sometimes doctors want you to check your sugars to check the effectiveness of the meds you are on... (you didn't say if you are on anything) and sometimes they want the numbers so you can alert them if you are getting a lot of high readings. I am on medication and just in the last few months my morning readings were over 180 most every day. My doctor decided to put me on insulin and they have improved. She also increased my metformin and now I'm getting excellent numbers.
Don't be suprised if you have a little slump here and feel sad. Diabetes is a chronic disease and sometimes a bit overwhelming. Don't give up and come back here a lot for encouragement. There was nothing like this when I was diagnosed and I had to just wing it on my own. There are lots of people here who want to help you out so post as much as you like, and take care.
"As one goes through life one learns if you don't paddle your own canoe you don't move."