Reading your post, I can't help but feel for you. I feel for you like I feel for my husband who has to put up with some pretty irrational and unexplainable behaviour
from me; particularly over these past few years. I've yet to get my sugars to a controlled state or maintenance level and, with various changes to insulin regimens and such, it's been an adventure ride to say the least.
When you say your husband's sugars are controlled.... What is that being judged on? Are his fasting, pre-meal, and bedtime readings all in range? Does he experience low blood sugars? Is this confirmed with a test strip? Much of my fluctuating behaviour
is directly related to what my sugars are doing. If I'm sliding downhill towards a hypo...I immediately get increasingly irritated, aggitated, clumsy, and hostile even. Just today I started making lunch OK (meaning, I tested and was happy with my 5.2 reading) and ended the preparation 10 minutes later with banging cupboards, swearing, and wanting to cry until I started eating and the food kicked in. My husband stayed outta my way and we ate in silence for the first 5 minutes but then I slowly started to feel normal again. My husband broke the silence with a,"Feeling better?", to which I replied, "Yes. I'm sorry." I hate myself for what I put him through sometimes but we're trying to understand this together. I feel guilty and ashamed about
at times but I'm thankful that most folks around me are aware and supportive. I can't explain why one minute I'll cry at a commercial and next be so mad at something trivial. I can't explain why I test after a meal, get a great number or a even high number and then go hypo 20 minutes later. I can only tell those around me what's going on so they know I'm not outta my mind
the long time to diagnose him Type1....I'm a Type1, diagnosed January05. Prior to that I was diagnosed a Type2 June04. I've known I was hypogycemic for years prior to the Type2 diagnosis and subsequent medications. I guess if you want to put a label to us folks that have shown signs of Diabetes for years and ended up with a Type1 diagnosis, it would be...LADA (Latent/Slow Adult Onset Diabetes). Sometimes they call us Type 1.5. We're born with the ability to produce and use insulin but, somewhere along the way, our bodies turn on themselves and start destroying the insulin-producing cells in our pancreas till they're all gone. Diabetes being an auto-immune disorder, they figure having been really sick with a virus could be the catalyst for the system turning on itself. It is a process once it starts and they haven't nailed down how long it takes.
The change in behavior recently is still explainable if you consider my explanation of Type 1.5 above, and understand that for the past couple of years his insulin regimen was adequate along with the insulin-producing cells still around. As I said, the cell destruction is a process and maybe his recent change in behavior has signaled their end and therefore, an updated insulin regimen is required? At any rate...a visit to the doctor is in order, IMHO.
- Phishbowl (Type 1 since Jan'05 - Levemir, NovoRapid)
"We do not see things as they are; we see things as we are." -- Talmud