Hi I am new to this forum. I learned I had Type 2 diabetes about 8 months ago. But feel I had it for longer. I am 35yrs/F. Diabetes runs in my family quite a bit. My mom type 1 from child on, my grandmother Type 2, my aunt type 2, my great grandfather type 1 and others on moms side of the family. Then on the other side of the track-My father which passed away at age 39 from a heart attack & heart disease also became diabetic the last 7 years of his life. Type 2. So, I guess it should have not shocked me to much when I went in for a yearly routine check up just to learn I am diabetic also.
I am on Metformin and have lost 24 pounds in the last 3 months. Horray! I had to take off my rings because they kept falling off my fingers. So I am happy for that. I am also choosing much better food choices for myself and family on a good note. I think the diabetic diet is the best way to eat healthy. Yet I find I have to force myself to eat at the right times and as many times as I should. It is such a stuggle to make sure I have everything I need for the day, making sure I measure everything out, keep track of times, sugars, etc..What a pain in my rear end. I know so many could relate to this also. But I am still struggling with my time managment skills and my bad point which is consistency. My sugars have been jumping up and down quite a bit. I go high -to lows. Sometimes I can keep them consistent. But I find I eat when I am hungry 2 maybe 3 meals a day as normal-instead of eating small meals & snacks every 2 hours or so as I was told to. That transition seems to be hard for me to manage for some reason. I just dont have an appetite or the time management skills I think and have to force myself to eat like that. Even when I know I need to eat something. It is a struggle for me to force myself to eat. I use to love food and loved to cook. Now, It is as if some how I got it in my head Food & Carbs are my enemy. That just the thought of eating turns me off. But I know I have to work on finding some balance in this regard. I know that cant be a healthy mind set. I wonder if anyone struggles with this?
I have also been picking up every little germ someone spreads around at work, kids from school. I have never got sick this much in my life. Example for the past 3 months it has been pretty bad. One thing after the other. I am about to start running around with a can of Lysol everywhere I go:) I feel like such an idiot calling into work as much as I have had to. Not to mention if this dont stop happening I could end up fired. I am scared to death about the winter coming now, when the flu starts etc. I have ended up with Phenmonia for 2 years in a row now, my health/immune system seems it has steadly gotten worst. It is like my immune system just is not been the same within this time period. I just cant ever remember getting sick so much. I wonder if this could be something else or to do with the diabetes? Is anyone else having problems like this?
Recently, Having major feelings of having no contol in my life anymore. I have always been a person that does everything just so, plans out everything, keeps everything running, the person others come to, always taking the lead, it comes natural to me. Yet, it is like god is testing me. For a person that has always been in charge, to hahaha now what are you going to do with this? I am feeling pretty alone even though I am not alone and loved by many. I get so sick and others try to baby me and instead of me appreciating there concern, it irritates me to no end. I get withdrawn and go into this kinda depression mode. Because I am not use to being the one falling apart. I am still trying to maintain the person I am or was. Maybe in a bit of denial even. The big thing I am feeling is diabetes is controlling my life and I have lost control in my life. Does anyone have this? I really feel crazy.
And sense I am on this rant. For the past 2 months I get this awful pain in the back of my head and on the right side w/weird tingling sensations. I am starting to wonder if I am having some kind of neuropathy. Last year I was having allot of problems in my hands, wrist, and shoulder. That I had to get one of those nerve test where they keep sticking you with needles an a small electric jolt, and I went to physical theraphy which helped for a while. The doctor said he found I had carpal tunnel which explains the wrist but he was not sure why my shoulder was hurting so much- However, it has got much worst and has seemed to spread up my shoulder,right side neck and tends to go along with the head pains I am having at times, other times not. My feet,my legs tingling, going numb, going to sleep, pain in my hips and knees. All mostly on the right side of my body. With hardly ever any problems with the left side. So one has to start wondering what is this going here. Has anyone experienced this?
Post Edited (Butterflys) : 9/23/2006 6:15:43 AM (GMT-6)