Hello Ruth, I'm also a "pre-diabetic", controlling blood sugar with diet and exercise since this came about a couple of months ago. I think your dilemma is more behavior oriented than particularly diabetic related. I'm in my mid 50's and have succeeded and failed on diets for a long time and now at this age, I know it's me and my committment that's the problem, not the diet. However, when this high blood sugar reading came about, it scared the patooties out of me, so for the first time in my life I realize I have to stay on this for my health and for my life. Previously, I yo-yoed more times I can count. Now, there's more reason for me to stay on this regimen than getting back into shape on the outside. I'm concerned about that, true, but I'm deadly scared about what's going on in the inside. I'm taking one day at a time. After nutrition counseling. roaming through this forum, the South Beach diet and just commen sense, I know that I'm doing this for me as well as my family because I want to see grandkids and be as healthy as I can. I know that I'm the only one in control over what I put in my mouth. The trouble is I used to be so good in public but when I was alone, I seemed to make stupid choices, as if it didn't count if I ate the cookies and no one saw me. The high blood sugar results alarmed me into realizing I have to do the best to control what I can now before my body decides for me. I'm not sure how this will pan out but so far I've done pretty well in the numbers and that's encouraging me to keep at it. Yes, diabetes might very well be a part of our lives forever but try to be true to yourself because it's only you who has control over what you put in your mouth! Sometimes, just a bite of a cookie (even someone else's!) is ok and you'll be glad you didn't eat ten of them. Good luck!