I think it is natural to have a fear or anxiety when you are first diagnosed and that wont go away unless you deal with it. For me, it was finding out everything I could about epilepsy. Knowing exactly what was going on made it less scary for me. Sometimes when you are trying to do something (Such as learning to drive - for me) which the fear stops you doing, you have to just grab the bull by the horns and go for it. Do you still currently have seizures on a regular basis?
HELLO! I promise you it will all be ok. Now that you know what is going on, all you can do is grow from it.
I have Right temporal lobe complex partial seizures. Was diagnosed 10 years ago. I tried to do alot of research but couldnt find really what I was looking. After a few years of "not getting it" I tried to look for other people with the big E. I have chatted with TONS of people over the last 6 or 7 years. Some of them helpful some of them just time consuming LOL I have actually flown to meet some of the friends and have had some of them fly and meet me also. be careful with this ovbiously. After 8 years of interesting stuff, 12 meds, a right temporal lobectomy, and a VNS, I am now married to a man who has beat the big E, have semi safely had a baby and own my own business. I still have spells from time to time but I am ok with it.
To actually get to your question, are you sure your meds arent the reason for your *feelings*? Have you talked to your dr about them and what are they saying?