I also posted this on the depression page. I guess I need to vent or and stop pretending this isn't real. I feel like I'm walking around with a fake smile on that everyone can see through. My daughter is getting married; the only problem is that her husband to be "doesn't want to be in the same room with me." He feels I'm not appropriate. He says that me epileptic episodes are embarrassing or that I'm faking them. My daughter agree's with him. Ever since she told me I have been getting exceedingly more depressed. I feeling my whole life & I am futile. He doesn’t want me at their wedding or part of their lives. No medicine is going to fix this. I feel so lost; I did everything for my children; I feel like a freak. I can't stop crying how can I fix this.
Thanks everyone. BF does not believe that you can "forget" time. Part of my seizures is that I say or do things that happen when I appear concious but am actually having a siezure. They warn you that "Your behavior during a temporal lobe seizure may appear to be deliberate to onlookers. People having these types of seizures have been mistaken for being drunk, taking drugs or acting disorderly." Mine also cross over to the better-known grand-mal and petit-mal epilepsies, in which seizures are "generalized" throughout the brain and cause either unconsciousness and gross motor convulsions or brief lapses in awareness. After either I am very tired and sleep. BF has all the cards and I'm just swirling in a depressive state. I have spoken to friends and family but they can't change the way things are. Maybe I should have posted this on epilepsy page, but I feel so hopeless. The thought of not being in my daughters life is overwhelming. Thanks for listening.