Yes, I know you must be frustrated about the driving, especially when others are driving. I haven't driven in almost 3 yrs and I depend a lot on my family and friends for transportation. The one good thing that happened is because I walk a lot now to go places, it gives me a chance to just reflect and think, something I never really had time to do before.
As far as people I meet, I was sure they wondered why I never drove my kids, never volunteered to carpool. But then it finally occurred to me that people are so wrapped up in their own lives and their own problems, they probably don't give me a second thought. So, I don't worry about it. If anyone asks me about me driving, I say, " I don't drive." My family and close friends know my situation and that's what matters to me the most.
The times I do feel frustrated (or sad or mad), I do something to relieve the pressure. I think this a great place to come and vent a little, laugh a little, give a little to others. Exercise helps me, and of course... chocolate doesn't hurt ! Glenda
Yes, you are frustrated. You feel like you are mad and alone. Other people that drive who have sympathy for you like your family and friends do feel your pain. But they don't know what you are going thru in your mind.
It's NOT that you are a loser. And it's NOT that you do not have the courage to tell people about your medical condition. It's not about courage.
YOU ARE NOT A LOSER. YOU ARE A PERSON THAT IS PUT INTO A DIFFICULT POSITION.
Other people that are not in your position do not know what to say when they know about your situation - because it it THEY that feel embarassed. When people do not know, they show their nervousness by their behavior. They are not laughing at YOU. They may talk, but not as you suspect.
Don't hide yourself in a closet, Caroleena. Educate those around you. Become friends with those that you feel most alienated with and you will see how peple will open up their eyes. YOU aren't the one with anything to fear. Because YOU are the one that can do something about it. You can help yourself. Mentally make yourself stronger. Physically get in shape. Develop new hobbies. Enjoy little things in life you didn't before. Maybe help someone that is less fortunate than you.
It's the other ones that don't know what to do!!!
I know you cared enough to come back and say what you had to say... I KNOW you can DO what you have to DO. (((((CAROLEENA)))))