Vent away all you like, that's what we're here for.
There are great people on this board with lots of experiences to share. Hopefully you can get something positive out of our past experiences.
Hi Sunflower, ((Hugs)) Sometimes I actually feel fortunate to have had sz's since childhood cause I think it would be devastating to have Epilepsy dropped in your lap as an adult. I can say that time will heal this wound for sure. Epilepsy will become just part of who you are and won't have to consume your life. Part of what makes having E so difficult is the meds and if one isn't working for you then definitely speak with your Dr. There are a wealth of meds out there and each will have a somewhat different side effect for each person. There are many people on this board that were diagnosed as adults that can relate to your pain so you're definitely in the right spot. I hope you're feeling better today.